#planning issues

Hey there! So... I need to apply for the classes I’m taking this semester in approximately 30 hours. 30 HOURS! And I have yet to make the right decision. It’s been a rollercoaster, truly. So I’ve tried to make it easier, in different ways and I’ve reduced the options from almost 15 to 2 schedules and 2 back-ups. Cuz yeah, that’s how I roll.

A little bit of backstory, I started studying engineering after I finished school, it was a big decision and then I realized it wasn’t for me, now I study architecture. So now decisions make me sick and uneasy and I feel like I’m making a big thing out of nothing but I’m a perfectionists and that’s how we do. 

So first, I made a list on excel with all the classes I wanted to take and the optional classes I could take and made 7 schedules, 4 in the morning and 3 at night. The thing is the best professors teach in the morning but I feel more productive at night and I still don’t know how to work that out. 

Then, I also made a pros and cons chart for this 7 schedules. 

Yep. So I put the time I would start and finish classes everyday of the week, the total of hours I’d probably be at university, if the professors I had selected were an option in that schedule, how often I would have to eat lunch outside, how many extra hours of traffic I’d probably have to keep in mind (traffic is a horrible thing where I live) and what optional classes I could take. And I thought I had done a good job.

The thing is I wasn’t happy with the only optional classes that were available, wich got me to think what optional classes I would actually need for my major? Answer is none of the available in the schedule I was going for. The only one was a Digital Presentation that left me with a 5 hour hole between classes, wich just NO. It’s a nightmare.

THEN, I found out there was another course I could take which I hadn’t think of because I had mistaken the requirements. So there was the possibility of making more schedules... and that’s where I went straight to hell of indecision.

I made 5 MORE SCHEDULES. And obviously added them to the pros and cons chart.

This made everything more confusing, I couldn’t possibly think, so there were schedules that had all the profesor I wanted but were super early in the morning, the most important class I wanted to take was in the mornings, i would have to stay less hours at the university if I study in the mornings. On the other side, I don’t have the proper environment to study in the afternoons, my house is super loud (there’s a 5 year old and more!), I’d love to go to a cafe or a library, but libraries are always full and most of my work implies making models and I can’t do that surrounded by people, it makes me uncomfortable.  

It’s just that I’m super efficient when I study at night, I can wake up super early by myself if I know I’ll wake up and take a nice shower, make myself a smoothie and start my day. I can’t wake up rushing and thinking what I’m going to wear, if all my assignments for the day are ready and skipping breakfast. I hate that. Also there’s a very good  ambiental architecture class I can only take at night. But at night I’m taking an optional class instead of taking one from the next semester and I don’t know if that’s enough. Also, 5 HOURS BETWEEN CLASSES! 

So my indecision attacked again.

THEN, I obviously put more variables in my ecuacion and made everything harder I guess. I made the schedules again, but now considering the hours of transport (red), the time for lunch (yellow) and the time for showering and cleaning and stuff (purple).

So there they are, my monsters. The ones that are literally keeping me up at night. I cannot possibly decide and it’s infuriating, because I know it’s all about my issues with making decisions and failing and breaking my life plan or something.

And their backups.

So obviously the next step was to write a pros and cons list, but instead it kind of turned into this masterpost/representation of my life. I just thought it would be nice to put it out there, because everyone I ask for help says it’s my decision and I KNOW, but damn it is hard.