#pilotlog

I hate relationships but I want one (romantically). But I am afraid of being really hurt again. I don’t know exactly what I want in a reltionship either.

I feel like there is something wrong with me because of the way the past ones ended. Or si it them? Am I emotionally attached?

I am just so confused, and empty. Drowning myself in work and costume has kept me busy but occassionally I can feel the heart aches coming back. I want to go back to not worrying about this!