#pickingtw

So, I've been seeing a lot of posts/articles (on and off tumblr) about BFRB's and excoriation disorder, and I just found out cheek biting 'counts' as maybe a part the disorder(s)? I've been literally tearing the inside of my cheeks to shreds since I was little. I also chew on my tongue. All through my school days people asked me what I was chewing on, and I'd innocently reply "...my tongue." It can get really painful when I'm nervous or stressed, or just thinking too hard. My resolutions for the past 4 or so years have been to stop, but it's very challenging. I make these little raised scars (that always heal over fast because they're inside of my mouth) and just ruminate on them...knowing they're there, feeling satisfied...letting them heal. A few days later it's like I need to make more. It never ends. When it was really, really bad I used to tear up my cheeks, and then (I'm so sorry for this) look at the pieces!?!?! Disturbing, right lol. Funny thing is, I remember looking it up when I was like 14 or so, and finding nothing but personal stories and people who grew out of it. Anybody else do this to their mouths? Just some thoughts because...it's so innate to me I don't think about it anymore, even when it hurts.