sid finds sworn enemy in a bar, circa ten pm, cornered in a bathroom.  she lounges pretty and thin under a young womanâs nose, and sheâs gone the next second. snorted. &. as for the woman--- did i mention how young she is? too young to be here. well, she straightens up, donning satisfied smirk, and as for the sound that leaves her mouth?  itâs familiar. as familiar as the snort, as this scene. Â
  someone far away yet beside her sounds annoyance at the woman who is sid, stood frozen in the doorway, easy to skirt past.  this is fine. her thoughts, right now, are memories:  and they are censored. nobody is allowed to see them.  just know that they hold sid hostage for a good ten seconds too long, before she finds her footing again--- returns to the party, remembers how to breathe.
  breathing is good &. thereâs not enough air in here; does no-one else think so? jesus christ.  she abandons the bathroom, the queue, anyone she came with in search of the emergency exit. this is not an emergency though. this is fine.
 so desperate to reach it, she slams into about a million shoulders; broad and dainty, she doesnât discriminate. of course, sheâs the cause of a few spilled drinks, she feels them soak through her shoes. apologies?  no.  â fucking move, â  until sidâs in the alleyway outside. the chill is nice, so is the large gulps of air,  palms flat on the wall, eyes closed. this is what absolute, skilled concentration looks like.