#phoenixtalks

i was thinking about gathering some artists to celebrate TTSBC’s 100th work! it’s probably going to be the acronym and a lot of character art to fill in the spaces!

would you be interested?

Hey everyone! So I know I haven't been posting fics, prompts, etc for the last couple of months and well let me tell you why.

I do work a full time job (which they switched my hours on me completely without actually notifying me first, oh well.) And I am also a mother to an almost three year old. (MY CHILD IS GOING TO BE THREE NEXT MONTH. STOP GROWING TINY HUMAN).

On top of all of this about five months ago, I learned I am once again pregnant with my second child. Which is gonna be another girl. My poor husband has been out numbered by females xD. This pregnancy compared to my first has completely kicked my ass. Its been rough. I'm constantly sick and exhausted. Just all around not having a good time. Plus we are in the middle of a global pandemic, so that doesn't help much.

Here recently, I had a COVID scare. I had been experiencing symptoms of covid and my OBGYN wanted me to get tested. Thank God they came back negative. I'm still in quarantine cause of the symptoms and just not a good idea for me to be leaving my house.

With so much going on I haven't had the time or energy to be able to write and produce any type of content. I have still been writing some in my free time when I have it but not enough that I would post it to my standards.

Well anyway, this fight is about Yaoyorozu’s lack of confidence within herself and Aizawa wanting to help her gain that confidence back. But the more I watch this episode, I realize something. Yes, Aizawa definitely had a hand in bringing her confidence back by willingly throwing the match by letting Yaoyorozu catch her. Despite him saying, “I didn’t know what Todoroki was going to do” or “Where he was.” Like, Aizawa, we get it. Dadzawa moment. You knew very well Todoroki wasn’t that far away. He could of gotten the upper hand, easily. Yet, he threw the match. 

But what I want to talk about is another key role in Yaoyorozu gaining her confidence again. Todoroki. So the more I watch it, the more I see that Todoroki really did a lot to help her without realizing it. (Also once again, thanks to Aizawa telling him he should of asked Yaoyorozu’s opinion). In the moment where Todoroki is suspended into the air by Aizawa’s capture weapon and Yaoyorozu comes back. You can see just how scared and confused she is. Until Todoroki starts talking to her, asking if she has a plan. Before saying that one of the votes she received for Class Rep was from him and he believed in her. Instantly, you can see the change in her. We start to see Momo Yaoyorozu again. 

While, I believe this was all orchestrated by Aizawa (I also think he purposely had himself in the match with her to be able to try and help her without her knowing), Todoroki did play a key role in helping restore Yaoyorozu’s confidence. I don’t think he would of thought to say anything to her had it not been for Aizawa but what he said, really did help her. 

I know it’s my fault. I’m dealing poorly with everything that’s going on, I’d been ... feeling like something was going to happen. I think we’re splitting again. There’s not enough to go around to handle how much I’m trying to handle.

Diyac is covering for how messed up I am and dealing with when I lose it and trying to work on keeping A happy (even though that seems an impossible task).

James is internalizing the sense of not being good enough - for anyone.

Moran has his protective jealousy focused around C and the ones he cares about, and is trying to make sure we take care of Beanlet.

Derek is holding onto the loss and pain of both losing Stiles and also losing the sense of a bigger, happier family.

Alex has still been holding onto the hope of something improving. But he’s also suffering for his... obsession. 

I haven’t heard much from Will or Dean. Or maybe it really was Will who was trying to be up earlier, but if so he’s completely fucked up. 

Current suspicions:

Isaac has a little space

Phoenix has a little space

Alex age regresses more than we realized

Someone is around and has been around for a while who is a little

...Now how the fuck are we supposed to figure it out? Reading around on DID/system blogs is helping us realize stuff about the headspace but everything is also kind of a mess right now with the breakup...