#pfab

John 10:10 

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

  I’m back in my Father’s presence. I’m satisfied and my joy overflows because of His grace. Imagine, I’m the one who ran away, I’m the one who moved, I’m the one who broke up, I’m the one who’s wrong and who committed mistakes but He remains gracious, His love for me did not change and never dwindled even an inch. It’s always better in His presence. I feel loved and secured. But the thief’s deception is always lingering, trying to steal me from my Father’s hand. It’s been so many times that I was deceived by the enemy’s lies. Deceptions like stress, schoolwork’s schedule preoccupation, fear, inferiority feelings, sins, temptations are the frequent lies that the enemy is throwing on me that I end up entertaining. Then, the next thing I know, I’m already trapped in his pernicious tactics. It’s been a cycle. And the bad thing is after giving in on the enemy’s trick, I just go with the flow and that lengthens the enemy’s work on me.

But I’m still thankful because the good thing is I’m always welcome on the throne of grace. No condemnation, no punishments and all. His love is so great that I can’t even comprehend and understand its vastness.

But now, I’m trying to collect my thoughts. Why does it happen over and over again. It seems that I’m not learning. I always give in to the deceptions, go with the flow and then go back to the Lord then repeat the pattern. What’s wrong with me. I always let the thief to steal and destroy. I’m not condemning myself but what I mean is that I need a breakthrough. I don’t want to waste time anymore going with the flow. Those wasted time could be another soul going back to the Lord or it could be my most desired breakthrough. I need to become more immersed in His love, grace and power.

I’m grateful that God has given me a free will to decide for myself, to choose what to believe and what to follow. Everyday is a battle and it comes with choices. It’s up to me if I’m going to repeat the pattern again and depend on my own strength again or just leave it all to God and believe that it’s only by His grace everything will be on their proper place.

You know, grace is a big word, a big thing, it has numerous definitions. And it doesn’t only mean that if you fail or fall short of His glory, He is always ready to forgive you and then start all over again. Yes, that’s a big thing, a great kind of love. But grace could also mean in general: Grace is God at work and the opposite of that is me at work. Well, it’s also the same meaning with the first definition because you can do nothing to save yourselves or to pay the price for your sins for Him to forgive you because He already pay the price for your sins on the cross. But it could also be apply on those circumstances where I’m frequently deceive to just do it all by my own effort. What I mean is, during those situations like stress, schoolwork’s schedule preoccupation, fears, inferiority feelings, panic attacks, sins and temptations, all I have to remember and believe is that the grace of God will be the one that will defeat and conquer all those deceptions. It is God at work and not me. It is God! And by letting His grace work on those situations, I might finally have the breakthrough on that area of my life.

Grace is not just some common word, it’s a powerful gift that goes beyond human effort. And that’s what we need on our daily life. That should be the fuel of our engine. That should be what keeps us going. And that will be my only weapon to defeat the enemy’s deceptions.

Thank You Jesus for Your unending grace!