#petscop meta

I’m not the only person I’ve heard of who experienced trauma at different stages of my life and ended up being unable to see the recipient of those experiences as being one same person. Someone who knows more about child development than I do would probably know for sure, but I think? that this is something that wouldn’t be surprising as something a child experienced because children (or at least some who are young enough) do not have strong enough senses or understandings of identity and who can therefore have a kind of cognitive dissonance that would make it hard for them to accept that certain things happened to them. (I mean this is how dissociative identity disorder is a thing and why it’s a product of childhood trauma.) So basically, Care (who is obviously a child) has trouble reconciling that her pre-trauma self was the same person as her mid-trauma self, and once she gets far enough into that experience where she’s at the Care NLM point, she has trouble believing that the traumatized child she was before is the person experiencing this horrible escalation of trauma that could easily just be another phase of the experience. (Like...this may sound weird but does anyone else find that sometimes traumatic events tend to have phases where things are better or worse? Like the thing is traumatizing and bad right from the start but it gets worse in a way that almost feels like the actual situation itself has become something different than it was before.)