a tragic song = june yersova (and tbf its also very liv coded in a way) @petertingle-yipyip ♡ @see-the-divine – writing this bc im too lazy to make an edit
I've tried to leave it all behind me / But I woke up and there they were beside me / And I don't believe it but I guess it's true / Some feelings, they can travel too — I feel like this is June at two points in her life. The first being right after she leaves fisk behind, and starts staying with liv. During that time i definitely see June struggling with her morals in a lot of ways, i think finally after years it hits her how much damage she has done to too many people. Regret and guilt eat her alive, even though she tries to leave it all behind, the memories of peoples lifes she ruined, hurt or killed haunt her. Their faces printed in her brain, but not their names, she never knew those. So many people she wished she could apologize to, make it right with, except she can't. And then the second instant i think is freshly after the snap. June tries to leave her old life behind her. Matt, Foggy, Karen, even Frank (who refuses to let her). But everwhere she goes there are details, little things that remind her of all of them. When she tries a new coffee order her first thought is to tell Karen about it. A new album just dropped? she imagines her and Foggy singing along to it in the car. The guitar in the corner of her room in the compound basically taunts her with memories of Frank. Matt she refuses herself to think about. The wound too fresh, too painful. Of course things still slip through, like walking past a church or continues tapping reminding her of his cane. But out of everything Livia is the worst. Her perfume still lingers. Her laugh still echo's. June does anything she can to keep Livia alive in her mind. Pictures of her are on display in every room.
Im gonna be focusing more on post blip for the rest of this btw.
Oh there it is again, sitting on my chest / Makes it hard to catch my breath / I scramble for the light to change — So this just very much continues everything from before.
You're always on my mind / You're always on my mind — She can't escape the people she loves. No matter how desperately she tries and attempts to every time. They are entangled in her every being. Stuck to her like gum on pavement. They'll always linger around her like smoke.
And I never minded being on my own / Then something broke in me and I wanted to go home / To be where you are — Now this is part of this lyric that inspired me to make this whole post. It is quite literally June post snap / blip era to a T. Before she had liv and the gang she was always on her own. She never knew anything else. They changed her life on such a fundamental level. The something that broke in her was a hundred percent losing Liv. No doubt. She loses Liv and she wish that she could go home. She wishes life could go back to the way it was, but it has forever changed. The to be where you are is very double to me, and thus to junebug. She wished she could be where Liv is, Matts apartment, it always was home. Both of them spend most of their time there. Despite Liv having her own apartment, with a room for June. Alivia's presence floats through the whole space. It always has and it always will. Later June concludes thats why Matt moved. The other part of that lyric to me is just depressing. Liv is gone. June wishes that she was with her. It never fully occurred to her that she would lose Liv, especially not in a way like this. Junebug is definitely gonna struggle with some suicidal ideation </3
But even closer to you, you seem so very far — LITERALLY JULIVIA IN DDBA. Do i need to say more? no. Will i? yes. Liv is back (yippee) but the angst is far from over. Something about Livia is different, and June can't fully place it. Its obvious why shes different, she dissappeared from the face of the earth for five whole years and then came back to everything and everyone having moved on. Their relationship is different. Both of them feel like strangers to each other. She finally got her Liv back, but nothing felt the same. She wished she could reach Livia, get back the bond they had. But have too many things changed? has too much time passed?
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And if I stay home, I don't know / There'll be so much that I'll have to let go — I've been sitting on this lyric for a bit now and then it hit me, maybe this is june right after endgame. Home had gotten a new meaning to her. The avengers compound. Steve. Natasha. A new family. It was her home for over three/four years. And then she loses that family. Another home ripped away from her. And she has to let go. Pack up her life once again. She gets to reunite with her first family but at what cost.
You're disappearing all the time / But I still see you in the light / For you, the shadows fight / And it's beautiful but there's that tug in the sight / I must stop time traveling, you're always on my mind — This bit also reminded me soo much of mattlivia i just had to put that outthere. On june though i feel like this definitely can be her with liv right after the snap. In June’s dream liv is disappearing all the time, turning into dust. But during the day she sees Livia in everything she does, smells, hears. The shadows fight, could be referring to June leaning more into her vigilante side as a way to feel closer to Liv. Maybe in a way continue what she started. June is going to experience so many things without Liv. June and Natasha eating dinner together, laughing, and for a moment - just a moment, she doesn't remember liv is gone. Until it hits her a second later. It makes her relive her grief over and over again. Always she ends up reminiscing on how it was, how things used to be.
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We all need something watching over us / Be it the falcons, the clouds or the cross — Now this bit had me excited when i heard it because its just too perfect!! Like Falcons?? yeah im sure. Literally her and j. The clouds is Livia. Always looming, always watching over, Soft and gracious but can also be angry and dangerous. The cross, obviously Matt. Like it can't be anyone else. All of the people who mean the most to her. Its so perfect its actually insane.
And then the sea swept in and left us all speechless / Speechless — i think dex could he the sea. in this instance. in others i also see it being fisk/vanessa tbh. But yeah, this is just ddba. Foggy "dying" (dont mind me im still coping), ripping up the family dynamic once again, these bitches cant catch a break.
HOLY YAP OMG. i intended this to be a short little thing but uuh nvm 😭
