Ok I’m bullshitting my way through an emotional roller coaster and listening to like him by Tyler, The Creator, so get ready for angst bitches.
(It is also 6:43 in the morning and I have not slept one bit since 11:4something yesterday so I’m unhinged asf)
Ok so I have a combined AU that lives in my head of Just gonna let em hate by StarKitty013 and a series called Peter Grayson by Rainbowfish3
Just gonna let em hate is a hydra Peter Parker au with Winterwidow as his parents and Peter lives a fucked up ass life but then gets recruited to the avengers at 15 and them eventually they figure the parent shit out but I haven’t finished it so I have no idea how it ends but you get the gist general hydra Peter Parker winterwidow parents shananigins (idk how to fucking spell that don’t ask me rn) but it’s SO well written I can’t even explain I LOVE that fic.
And Peter Grayson is an AU where after Peter erases himself from the universe his soul gets sucked through the multiverse and gets plopped in a baby Peter in the DC UNIVERSE as Dick Grayson and catafuckinglinas (uncapitalization is INTENTIONAL ASF) baby that was barely hanging on (kind of like a Billy from Agatha all along sitch) but Peter remembers everything and is like a fully conscious baby witch is CRAZY for everyone else btw. And hilarious. Fucking hysterical.
But ok back to the point OH my GOD the ANGST POTENTIAL IS FUCKING CRAZY HOLY SHIT. I mean like extremely traumatized Peter dropped into this like barely traumatizing life (except for that one incident when he got thrown out a window at four but STILL) and so he NEVER FUCKING TALKS ABOUT IT WITH ANYONE so NO ONE KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS BABY CHILD WHO KNOWS TO MUCH AND IS EXTREMELY STEALTHY AND HAS N I G H T M A R E S OH MY GOD. AND HES TRAINED IN LIKE EVERY FIGHTING STYLE THERE IS AND KNOWS HOW TO USE GUNS OH MY FUCKING GOD I CANT.
OH AND THE FUCKING ANGST POTENTIAL IF HE DISAPPEARS BEFORE HE GETS TO FIND OUT ABOUT HIS PARENTS
OR HE DOES KNOW ABOUT THEM BUT ALL THIS SHIT HAPPENS BEFORE HE CAN TELL THEM OR BUILD A RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM
OR HE ALREADY HAS BUILT A RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM AND FINALLY HAS A GOOD SUPPORTIVE FAMILY AND THEN IT ALL GETS RIPPED AWAY AGAIN SO HE HAS THAT TRAUMA OF NOT GETTING ATTACHED TO PEOPLE DRILLED INTO HIM EVEN MORE OH MY GOD
why do I do this to myself.
This was supposed to be about how I think Peter in this au would stare up at the ceiling and listen to Like Him by Tyler the creator because he has a dad now but he’s more like his original dad than his now dad but he never got to build a relationship with his old dad and then he feels guilty for this perfect life (to him) not being enough so he has so many complicated feelings about it oh my baby. Oh my god. This is too fucking much. I’ve listed to this song like five fucking times I’ve gotta go I’m gonna puke oh no.
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