Life updates... July. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Can we just all agree sucky month? HAha, nah I'm sorry. It's been just a really hard go of it for our family to have such a sudden loss in our family. Prov and I are still grieving, but putting that upset energy to some good use. With lots of help from our clover crew (cinnri/choco) we're working on getting the house cleaned up and putting effort to getting pictures and shelving on my walls. We're ever so slowly going to finish unpacking this house darnit all!
It cost a pretty penny for candy's memorial items, but this was something I felt was... incredibly important to me. Since the passing of my first therapy dog, Shade, I have been.... grieving ever since. There is never a day I don't go on without missing him. And then the days I remember that I forgot, the guilt and shame wash over me.
I don't want those feelings associated with Candy. I shamefully hid Shade's urn in the furthest, darkest corner of my bedroom closet because it hurt... it hurt too much to see it. It hurt me so bad that I wanted to die. He was... just my light, for such a long time. It's so hard being here without him.
But Candy was here. And she was.. so amazing. So communicative. She was bright and full of personality. Literally NOTHING could slow her down. Shade is my relief, Candy is my reminder. Of what real love and understand is. And that's been such a desperate thing, all my life. And here I had it, I had it right there in my arms... I feel like I somehow let her slip away. As if this something I could have stopped from happening. She was elderly. She was never suppose to survive in the first place. But my god did she, she lived. A great big adventurous life with so many friends and companions. Candy was never lonely. And I'm so grateful for you all for that. All the years I struggled and barely survived.. Provinite my husband, My family, my friends, my fans and following... You all did so much for us and allowed us to be together. I am so grateful for that experience. Thank you all so much.
We also received a beautiful, I mean just absolutely stunning small plush of Candy the Corgi from TheFlamboyantPigeon on Deviantart. Prov and I lost our minds over this really sensational little plush of our baby girl. I would like to take a special day and take out candy's very lovely urn and take pictures of her with her beautiful plush self, so that we may always remember the true puppy she was at heart. <3
It's been... just a really hard month. We're still very much grieving but slowly getting back to routine of everything.
I have been working very hard at taking some artwork commissions to try and save up money to pay off the credit card I used to pay for all of Candy's vet/memorial expenses. I'm so far $1,200/$3000 covered. I am going to desperately work hard to clear it as soon as possible, this was a very big surprise monkey wrench for my personal plans to attend 2 conventions this year (WI/local ones at least?) The credit card I need back for booking hotels or prepping sample sets of my prints and merch. (sweats so much realizing just right now I have to find a new printer hnng)... so... As you can see money will be a bit tight on the fun stuff. I'm just so grateful I had been saving up cash also that could afford me all these extra vet visits and time with candy. I do not regret spending any of the money, it did exactly what we wanted. It got her home to say goodbye to our boys. And that was worth it, to have her resting peacefully in my lap for the last few hours.
SO... FLEXES... If you ever wanted to buy artwork from me, please feel free to hit me up or email me [email protected]
I also have adopt characters for sale on Deviantart! You can also purchase MYO Pillowing slots and help support the world of Clo financially~
Or even just last shot, ko-fi would be amazing. Donations and tips are never expected but forever grateful for. We're working hard so we can get back to making new content (prints/merch) for CloverCoin!
