#personalrantslol

now, although i hate the idea of it, i guess i should go to school. not to sound conceited, but im really smart. realistically, i could apply to probably to anywhere i'd actually want to go and get in and get some type of academic scholarship. 

but the the thought of it makes me cringe. giving up? quitting? pursuing something im not passionate about? with people who will probably just annoy me? in a place ill get bored of? 

i dont want to go to school. people go off to college and just party. ive had my share of college parties and frankly im just over it. id rather have a home cooked meal and a beer than go 'rage'. i dont like waking up and not being quite sure what might have transpired last night. i dont like losing control like that.

and another worry i have about going to college is i get bored of places too easily. i cant even imagine staying in one place for 4 years when although im in love with it and would go back in a heartbeat, i got bored in hawaii after 4 months. yeah, you can study abroad. but thats only one semester. yeah, you have summers off and could travel then. but thats such a short amount of time, and if i go to college ill be broke af so thats just unrealistic.