#personal4

Ugh? Do you smile even if you feel sad?Lonely?Depress? Or even hurt? hmmmm... 😏😏

it's pretty tough, right? Smiling and pretending that you're always okay but you are really not. 

i didn't realize we would be so close and i feLT likE I WAs GOING to P UKE fjklsda;fjsldjf i had srsly no chill omggg

gongchan waved at me ;uuu; i forgot the song it was, but it was slower and he looked my direction and i kept waving liKE A MAD MAN ;kfsdjfajoe and he waved bACK fkjsda;lfks f U K

Baro made eye contact with me and my friends sO  mUc H GOD BLESS

When Sandeul was on our side I waved at him aND HE WAVED BACK F;KASDLJF and then everyone around me was freaking out and started waving at him enthusiastically and he was like 'lol chill' fk;asdjf;lsdjfe9wpj9falsk;d

sO DURING THE LAST FEW SONGS I RUSHED TO THE VERY FRONT OF THE STAGE AND IT WAS HONESTLY A BLESSING FLKJASD;FLJKSDF AT THAT POINT SINCE I WAS DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF THEM IN THE MIDDLE, THEY ALL MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME HOW MAGICAL OMG L;KAJSDF

CNU WAS SO SWEET HE WAS TAKING SELCAS ON THE FANS' PHONES OMG I FORGOT MY PHONE WITH MY STUFF AT MY SEAT THO :((((( BUT I WAS PROLLY SOMEWHERE IN THE SELCAS #BLESSED

AND I FELT SO BAD BC WHEN BARO PASSED BY HE WAS SOOOO CLOOOOOOSE AND I HAD MY HAND IN THE AIR AND I FREAKED OUT AND ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED HIS BUTT UGH I FELT SO BAD ORZZZZZZZ SDL;KAJF;KSDFLJASD

JINYOUNG WAS REACHING INTO THE CROWD AND TOUCHING EVERYONE'S HANDS AND I TOUCHED IT AND SOB

sO  YA AFTER THE CONCERT me and my friends waited to go to their hi-touch and when we finally got to them i had my box from my lightstick in one hand so i went to high five sandeul with one hand but i was like UH.. WAIT and dropped the box so i can high five his other while still connected to his other adlfjk;sadjfldf hE LAUGHED AT ME GOD BLESS, SO EMBARRASSING SDK;ALJF

i COMPLETELY blanked during CNU and Jinyoung dsjl;kfja;ldsfj i just remember how sweet Jinyoung was for looking directly into my eyes with his eye smile dakls;jf;ladsf Gongchan said thank you and i replied "thank you so much! thank you so much!" and then embarrasingly said 'saranghae' to baro god bless flk;djsa;flkjdf

after we exited we went around with a bunch of other fans to see the boys exit on the side and me and my friends were honestly ready to go because it was taking them forever and we were SO exhausted fklj;asdf but right as we were about to walk away, thEY CAME OUT FLJDSK;ALJF they were so swEET they were taking photos and videos of us and Gongchan went up to the fence to touch fans' hands ;asldjf