#personal rambles

HUSK CALLED HIM "LEGS"

We are SO VINDICATED RiGHT NOW

FAndom!!!! That was purely Fandom thing, these pep names for eachother .

And now we have CONFIRMED "LEGS'!!?!??)))

CONFIRMED "WISKERS"??)))!))

Actually in particular if the clan survives.

There's no "my whole family is dead and taken away from me". There's no "everything is destroyed never to be rebuilt", there's no "all of my friends are dead" ...

partially because being friend in the first place is part of the tragicness.

The inquisitor tragicness is a... personal one, an interior one. They are the ones going through it, more so than the world. They do close the breah they do get rid of Corypheus. They could technically go back home.

But they can't. Because they changed so much. As a person they changed, like themseleves. But how they've perceived is also changed, and this perception is changed and twisted and different for everyone.

The herald of Andraste for some, a dalish elf for others even after all of that... but for the dalish themseleves... what of the fact the inquisitor was helping the chantry? Affiliated with it?

They're a billion different persona, and yet none fits truly. And as a person they're irremediably changed to, left to be... something.

For Lavellan in particular there's also the whole elvhen thing -that adds distance with the other dalish but again... that's an internal thing mostly. I doubt Lavellan was going screaming about everything they've learned. They lesrnt things about the eleves, that distance them from the other whether they want it or not.- that can shake their feeling of seld. They sense of self sorry, for the actual term.

Their sense of self as an elf I mean. Everything they believed for about elves, about what it is to be an elf, have been shaken terribly. (that one apply to rook too and veilguard should have gone into that more, like everything else.).

Who are they? is now posed on the deepest level for them. It's not just a matter of identity but their, their whole species, existence is questioned. Who are they? Where they is "the elves"...

but also, if we go further, thedas. The world. Who are they, this world? The very law of nature they believed in are apparently not the real ones. It's a made up world really, in a way.

And yet, that is in between the inquisitor and eventually their close circle. It's them that knows it and is shaken.

Someone else explained the friend thing better than me, how the inquisitor is forced into this role and with those people. They didn't truly chose them did they?

not saying true friendship and love can't come out of it, but everything was basically forced onto them.

And those people, those strangers from the other world, from their oppressors, the oppressors of their people, are forced onto them. They have to help them or get killed, as an elf. The chantry is saying "help or die" to an elf, knowing the history that is wild to me.

Then they're like "you're our tool. Good. cool. We'll use you wring out evrrything out of you. We'll change you on a deeper level, then we'll abandon you."

or rather force integration into the chantry which again DALISH ELF, or wlel "leave ir all behind. What, despite being forced into this, you have managrd to build yourselfx what maaaybe you found some sense of comfort... or maybe some meaning -make it worth it to be forced there/losing everything- into, let it go."

And so you either betray yourself, the dalish elves, further or you give it up. And you are left with... nothing.

your friends leave you, everyone goes back to their lives. And you? What do you do?

Now that you are an entirely different person? Now that as a dalish elf you helped the fucking chantry?

like the elf vs chantry here really is fucking wild to me. I can't articulate ir well but the chantry foricng a dalish elf "die or help", to work for them, to help them. Then the elf do, the eld beteays themseleves, abandon themseleves -forced yes- and build something... and then it is taken away.

No sorry oppressed we used as a tool. Either integrate, or get lost. Happy to use you when needed now we discard you.

elevate you to a myth, a myth of a religion that is not yours, that actually had oppressed your for milleniums, force you to be this mythical figure but of our religion... then abandon you.

And there's no one to truly relate to that. There's no one that has lived what rhe inquisitor has lived, with the dalish/chantry, with being changed so deeply with all the revelations aboutthe elves and the world. (or maybe there is, for the others about the world, yes. So some people cna relate to parts of it, not all of it.

Even Solas, can only relate to part of it when you think about it.

The inquisitor is totally alone in the end. It is an internal tragedy mostly, but it is a tragedy.

They're incredibly tragic to me, how they lose their sense of self their home their world, everything is taken away from them, and... it's also the "how" it happens. Because again, in particular if the clan survive, technically physically things aren't taken away really.

even their friend leaving at the end, it's not so much a physicsl distance type of abandonment.

And idk. That makes them so... tragic. (not more or less than other type of tragedies. Just different.).

And like they can't escape it either. I mean, if they don't become the inquisitor, they die at the conclave (if my memory is correct.).

I don't know if any of that really makes sense or if they're just rambles. Other people have put the tragedy of being the inquisitor into words much much better than me.

I remember a psot about home, speaking of warden/hawke/inky and how inky lose their homes bc hero don't have homes. The being made a myth, a hero, is a big part of the tragedy.

Personally I put it into "irremediably changed as a person" here.