Dec 13, 2018
“you’re so independent!!”
or as i like to call, being the result of emotional neglect where i effectively had to find ways to deal with things on my own when the people around me couldn’t handle my emotions properly and eventually got tired of them and where i ended up turning into my own counsellor and third parent as i grew up and got older, whether the mechanisms i used to help me were healthy or not, and even though i feel like i need someone to talk to and understand me, i feel both afraid and ashamed even at this age to really and properly reach out to those i feel would be the most helpful
#anyway#i don't want to say i'm rejecting independence#but i feel i've often had to deal with things on my own that it's like deep down i'm begging someone to just help and understand me#childhood emotional neglect#emotional neglect#toxic guilt#the myth of my independence#parents#parents //#toxic parents#anxiety#self-soothe#personal#personal post#personal probems#feel free to interact#feelings#intergenerational trauma
