#personal dos

Kalapastanganang iparamdam sa’yo na ligtas ka,

hawakan ka sa iyong pagkalugmok mo, at sabihing

Hindi mo gagawin sa akin ang ginawa ng iba,

para kainin mo lang ang mga sariling salitang sinambit.

Kalokohan ang ipamukha na aking kamalian ang rason sa iyong paglisan,

Munit wala ka lang pa lang lakas ng loob banggitin na ako’y kulang,

walang lakas iparating,

walang tapang sabihing na may ibang dumating.

Kabastusan ang magsimula ng panibago na ang pundasyon ay luha ng iba.

Kagaya ba ng bahaghari,

kailangan bang magdilim ang langit ng iba para lang magkulay ang sa inyo?

I think one of the saddest things about almosts is how they leave you stuck somewhere in between, wondering what could’ve been, replaying different versions of the story in your head, imagining timelines where things worked out differently.

Maybe that’s why it lingers in quiet moments. Because it had potential. Because it felt like it could’ve become something real, if only the circumstances were different. For now, I’ll leave the door open.

To be fully seen and still loved, that is everything.