#personal chatter

People already didn’t listen to my opinion and boundaries before my voice and body started passing as somewhat male. But as I’ve started to pass, more and more often, my voice and opinions and boundaries are not only ignored; I’m treated as hyper-aggressive/hostile/mean, inagreeable, and stubborn.

Even by my loved ones and friends, they way they treat the words that come out of my mouth or words through text has changed.

I can now say, I've done it! I've made it through to the end of day 10, the end of my first set of double digits!

I'm 10 days sober!

Life seems to be getting harder and more complicated as these early January days trudge on, but I haven't buckled. The longer I'm sober the harder it is to not rationalize that one puff or one glass of wine is fine. But despite those thoughts, I'm troopin' forward.

Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to reach out, genuinely. Ten days is a big deal to me.

tagged by: @tulipfromtheinternet and @mistchievous 😘

If you consider 80 a lot because I do - AHEM.

Hi, I'm Ven, or Veni, whichever feels best! Very new to this whole Tumblr dev thing, but a friend of mine told me the community here is something special so -- here I am. Trying my best on an account meant for something other than mindlessly reblogging pictures of space.

Not quite sure if an introduction post is what people usually do, but then again; It's a whole new frontier for me here, so I take the liberty of making a fool out of myself with no hesitation.

Another fun fact about yours truly is that, as much as I wish I was, I'm not a native English speaker or writer, so my sentence structures might be all over the place. Calling me out on it is free real estate, I do want to learn to be the best I can be after all.

Now then, about the game. The Erebus Project is a bit of an offshoot in a larger universe, no pun intended. Because space, eh? The entire game is set in an universe uncreatively dubbed 'Earth: 2974'. It's a working title but I haven't had the heart to change it to something more dramatic. The universe is dramatic enough as it is, taking place in the far future with scientific inventions and blunders, as you'll witness in TEP.

I can't wait to start sharing progress with you. My heart is in this project. Although I'm an adult and have to work from time to time, the game takes priority when time allows.

In the coming weeks I'll work on character introductions and worldbuilding for the blog. Hopefully it'll give you a taste of the world and people within it, both those you'll meet and just observe. Plus the alien. The catalyst of the whole adventure deserves some screen time.

Thank you so much for showing interest so far! I appreciate each and every one of you!

Hi anon!

Thanks for checking in. I’m relatively new to tumblr, so I didn’t know that long comments are an issue for some creators. I thought comments are part of an artist’s life-blood :) Does it have to do with how this platform works (i.e. people don’t like something else being tacked on to their piece, so to speak)? Or is it that people interact with gifs differently than hand-drawn art? If folks can enlighten me on this, please do!

Generally speaking, I think it’s cool when art inspires commentary - the good and the bad (it’s only fair, right?), so long as it isn’t mean-spirited.