#personal calling

Hey, Mary! Past life readings are currently on hiatus, but I can answer your question without looking at past lives. 

The obvious answer to why you’re drawn to the occult is that it’s fascinating. That sounds like a non-answer, but for you it’s actually not. You have three planets and your ascendant in Gemini, and a healthy Gemini is a curious Gemini. Occult literally means “hidden,” and anything that is a mystery is like catnip for Geminis. Well, more like Red Bull. Catnip makes humans super mellow. 

Another reason why you might be attracted to the occult is that you have a lot of personal calling stuff going on in Pisces. I suspect this is why you asked about past lives. Sometimes a calling to work with something can masquerade as a past life experience with it. Pisces has a strong connection with spirituality, and I suspect you sense that you have something to offer the world in that area.

Lastly, you have Pluto in your House of Work (6th house). Pluto is named after the god of the underworld and rules the occult. Having Pluto in your House of Work synergizes with the personal calling stuff you have going on in Pisces. That means that you have a double dose of stuff drawing you to work with the occult. There’s a sense of calling and a sense that you have skills around the occult that can be developed and offered to the community.

Whether you develop those skills or not is on you, but the potential is there!

Thank you, Osa! I hope you don’t want a reading on a particular subject because I’m not sure which reading you’re referring to. 😅

So, looking at your chart… You are a Scorpio with a Gemini moon and Aquarius rising. If your life had a theme it would have to do with calling. You have six points in the area of your chart that has to do with calling. 

For some people with that many things going on in that area of the chart, it would mean that their life revolves around the thing they feel called to do. 

For you, I suspect your life is going to be more oriented toward finding a calling. Finding it will probably require going on a quest, specifically taking an underworld journey into the darkest corners of your soul and reclaiming your shadow. 

Mat Auryn posted a really good article the other day about what reclaiming your shadow can look like and how the results of that work can become a calling. 

My advice to you is to be gentle about it. Most of this calling-work is happening in Scorpio, and Scorpio can be really intense, plowing through a task without fear of the cost long past the point of exhaustion. But you have the moon in Gemini in the house of joy (5th house). You are a person whose happiness depends on wandering and experiencing everything and having lots of time for play. 

Looking at your chart, I get a vision of your happiness being like a sputtering candle flame that’s easily blown out. Walk slowly with that candle. Cup it in your hand against the wind. It is better to go slowly and keep the flame of joy alive than to find your calling quickly and end your journey with a burned out heart. 

Happy trails!

Thank you, Lettuce! 

If you’ve read back through my readings, you’ll know that I’ve been talking a bit recently about themes in people’s birth charts. For a lot of people, planets tend to cluster in one place, and that place is where a lot of the drama in your life happens. You are one of those focused people. 

If I had to pick a genre to describe the story of your life, I would pick one of those fantasy stories where the hero has a destiny. Now, I don’t mean that you literally have a destiny, but I suspect the idea of a calling like that speaks to you in some way. Depending on how you feel about the idea, it might be more accurate to say that it haunts you. 

When I look at your chart, I get this image of someone standing on top of a hill watching the sun set with this feeling that something, somewhere out in the future, is coming, and it’s very important, and it’s very personal for you. There’s a restlessness in your chart, a sense that there’s something you need to be doing, and you don’t know what it is yet. 

Over the next year or so is an excellent time to invest in figuring that out. Put some effort into meeting people who have the same vision for the world as you. Spend some time on psychological healing work, especially dealing with crap you’ve been lugging around with you for a long time. Invest in your emotional health. Invest in your mind and learning how to communicate better. Work that you do in these areas will help you figure out the answer to the questions that have been picking at you and give you a clearer vision of where you want to take your future.

Good luck!

Five days ago – I received an anonymous question on here?

“What does Coelho say an ordinary person feels when they realize their personal calling?”

Whoever you are – I hope I didn’t scare you off (I’ve been known to do that). Just a matter of minutes after I read your question – I received sad news (and if you are still reading, you already know what that is). That triggered a deep wound of mine that hasn’t healed – may never heal completely.  

I don’t know who you are. I could guess, but I am never right on guessing – and to be honest, that’s not the point of the question, and I am sorry I brushed it off.

If you are still reading this, friend (at this point, we are friends, even if I don’t know you)…

I read ‘The Alchemist’ twice in my life. Once as a novel, and once as a graphic novel. Both times, I loved it. I even referenced it in my \m/ novel. A friend suggested for me to read it a decade ago when I was feeling lost. I suggested it to select close friends (and even gave them my copies of the book) when they were feeling lost. It's an important read.

My interpretation – ‘personal calling’ is that deep passion inside of you that is calling from within. It’s that itch that needs to be scratched – sometimes it’s difficult to reach (life). As the introduction suggest – obstacles come in your way. Discouragement will be there, time and time again. As Walt Disney would say, ‘keep moving forward.’ Or, better yet – keep on keepin’ on.

I’ve been a writer since jr. high. I am not a great writer, by any means. I’ve gotten better as years gone by. I’ve perfected by craft from piece to piece. My prose improved. But I have no illusion where I stand. My self-published books don’t really sell much (on Amazon, when I used to sell at Universal, and where I currently sell at Park Ave CDs in Orlando). I will never be a best selling author. I will never be the next Stephen King. I am just Keith Helinski. Does this stop me from writing? Of course not. I keep writing. I keep practicing. I will be turning one of my books into a hardcover book early next year, and probably will be working on a new book after that. I will also be contacting more local bookstores in the Central Florida area and see if I can get my books on their shelves.

I love the freedom to write whatever the fuck I want (within reason). Though, I’ve learned, there are some boundaries not to cross - regretfully, I crossed it many times...and pulled most of those writings. Some of it is good, unsure what to do with it (a lot of feelings/emotions/heart/love were put into those pieces, and are still there inside of me - but indifference also resides within, and because I crossed boundaries so many damn times, I just don’t know what to do with those pieces). Any advice? No? That’s okay. Moving on.

For a long time, I wanted to go back to school. My employer gave me the opportunity to do just that.  I was going for a Creative Writing degree, and had some classes under my belt. Then a set-back occurred over the summer (my migraines). During that time, I questioned myself, ‘do I really want/need a Creative Writing degree to be a writer?” Not really. I also realized a lot of the writers the classes uses as examples; I’ve already read/or/own. I look around my room and I am surrounded by the greats. I also realized a lot of the students that have the desire to be writers, do not read as often as they should. That is a big…hmmm…

Writing has also saved my life, more than once.

Rewind several years ago – I was told by an ex-girlfriend (pre-Karii) that I was wastin’ away my life, writing, hence the inspiration for the title of my blog (a short story I wrote, which was also inspired by Jimmy Buffett, was in-part, inspiration). We are at peace, now – and pretty damn good friends. Then, there was some bitterness. I learned to turn that bitterness into stories. Taylor Swift has a similar gift. At that time, I was also told I would fail at book writing.

I self-published three books. Not bad at failing at book writing.

That is the essence of ‘personal calling,’ friend. At least, my interpretation. And sometimes, you have to go on that long journey of self-discovery to find out exactly who you are – only to come back to the exact spot where the treasure is at. It was never about the destination. It was about the journey.

This past week (and your question) reminded me that, on a personal level. I have so many regrets in life (the ultimate journey we all take). But in actuality – I wouldn’t change a thing. It brought me here, to this moment. And at this point in time – the person who I am, I’ve been able to talk/be patient, and help my sister through her grief. Even my parents are a bit shocked. Yet, there are not.

For a guy that’s currently wearing an E.T. hoodie and Grinch pajama pants – I guess I grew up…some.

To the anonymous friend out there, if you are still reading this – if you found your personal calling….don’t let go of it, don’t feel discouraged…keep on keepin’ on.

That is all.

K.H.