#perkz

Then, he chooses to play Amumu because he wants to test the champion out and orders Perkz to play Lucian. Kid doesn't know his place. Perkz refuses cleanly, he chooses Irelia, he can chose a fitting champion himself, thank you. Then Selfmade starts to show off: "Watch ME WATCH ME WATCH ME". He acts like a three years old showing his parents all the new ballet moves he's learnt through the year./Selfmade doesn't stop talking about himself, about his account and his memories and Luka honestly doesn't care. Luka doesn't even bother to act impressed, and eventually there are moments of silence. He knows he is being harsh to the kid, but really- he invited him over to boost his elo, not stroke that guy's ego. And Luka cannot help but notice that there is some over-eagerness, (he was surprised when Selfmade actually agreed to duo and dug up his old account), like Selfmade is trying to prove himself.... Perhaps the kid holds some competitiveness and wants to be the better polish jungler. Perkz would be lying if he said Selfmade is not good, but if Selfmade is in his team— Luka would definitely change him a lot. (The kid has a lot to learn- starting with that moth of his.)

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Luka allows Selfmade to boast a little, but never too much. Oskar can feel when he is threading on the line of Luka's temper, and when Luka snaps he makes Oskar feel like a useless child getting punished for attention seeking, for not following orders, for being too noisy. The feeling is degrading, and humiliating, but Luka doesn't care — he never thinks about sparing Selfmade some dignity. Is this how he treated Jankos?

(He cannot help but wonder at times- did Perkz shout at Jankos like he's a five years old who just ruined __? Would Perkz throw the same accusations if he were Jankos?

And how did Jankos - no, Luka calls him Marcin- respond? Does Jankos call him Luka too? (Of course, who deosn't? Perkz let's everybody call him Luka.) And Jankos? Is Perkz the only one who calls him by his real name?)

He is thinking too much, and it's no good, but he cannot stop wondering about these small details. He wants to know how Luka treats Jankos, if Luka treats him the same way. His obsession over this whole ideal makes no sense- no matter how Perkz is towards Jankos, this will not be relevant for Perkz's current relationship with him.

At least that's what he tries to believe. Yet the statement gnaws on his mind- Even though they are on different teams now, even though they barely ___...

Once Selfmade walked in on Perkz playing duo with Jankos when he was supposed to fetch him for dinner. Jankos never duos with anybody. Also, he still sees their banters. They used to banter before Jankos joined G2, and the banters didn't stop after Jankos joined G2. Seems like they don't stop even after Perkz leaves.

Whenever Selfmade tries to start a banter, Perkz brushes him off smoothly- like he's too good for him. Like he can never reach Perkz with his words because they are on different leagues. But the truth is they are on the same team, playing together, and Selfmade wants Perkz to look him in the eyes, because they are on equal grounds. Selfmade is here for a reason. Even when the whole world approves, it feels like Perkz would not agree to the fact.

The fact that Luka and Marcin got along fills him with... envy. It is an ugly feeling. He craves that relationship, he wishes Luka could trust him like he trusts Jankos— and it makes no sense, really, because Jankos acts all dumb and clumsy while Selfmade is smart and smooth, yet Luka does not believe in him. He knows trust takes time to build, but he wants it now.

He wonders how Marcin put up with Luka's temper, how he could shrug it off because he knows that he is right and that Luka is overreacting and that they are both fighting for the same goal. He cannot do the same, not when Luka speaks like a commander sees right through him.

Another ugly thought rises- Jankos is the better polish jungler. Perkz thinks so.