#pergorio

if the world was ending - tammy/sonja

tammy/hannah:

up against me - lp

rsvp - maren morris

gorgeous - taylor swift

better - khalid

tammy/eva:

wish that you were here - florence + the machine

make out with me - maren morris

magnolia - kristen diable

finish what we started - jessie ware

tammy/sonja:

dark side of your room - all time low

ghosts and frames - abby and the myth

kung fu - emeli sandé

Tammy couldn’t figure out how she ended up in this situation. She had asked Sonja if they could run to the supermarket after work and she somehow ended up with a car full of NCIS agents. Sebastian and Chris had decided they would join, something Tammy didn’t learn until they reached the car.

It’s not that she was against hanging out with her teammates after work, but it was always a mess when the four were together. At work, they managed to get things done between their constant goofing off, but they were in public — without Pride to keep everyone on task.

This unsupervised adventure resulted in Tammy being pulled in three different directions, as if she was a mother of three children. She couldn’t prevent Sebastian from staring at things as they walked by, which resulted in him almost bumping into a handful of people. Tammy also couldn’t prevent Chris from being amazed at all of the different options of foods, it was as if he had never been in a real supermarket before.

And, to top it all off, it seemed as if the announcer at the supermarket had some agenda against Tammy. She would finally get everyone on track and then he would make the same announcement that managed to have her three companions almost doubling over in laughter.

“Six packs of Fiji Artesian Water are on sale for a nice price of five dollars and sixty-nine cents,” The voice would boom, causing Sebastian to snicker. Sebastian’s snickering resulted in Chris’ laughter. Sonja joined in on the laughter, but she laughed at their laughter, not the announcer.

After the third announcement, Tammy had heard enough. She stopped the shopping cart and turned to the three agents with her. “Stop laughing every time the announcer says sixty-nine!” she barked, glaring at Sebastian. She continued on the path to the produce, leaving three stunned agents in her wake.

Sonja sighed at the two men standing beside her and mumbled, “I’ll fix this.” She chased after Tammy, slowing down once she reached her. She found Tammy searching through tomatoes for the perfect ones. Wrapping her arm around Tammy’s waist, Sonja reached up and pressed a quick kiss to Tammy’s cheek.

“I’m sorry,” she said softly, looking up at the other agent.

Tammy shook her head and reached for a tomato. She wasn’t in the mood to deal with the immaturity of the male agents.

Sonja bit her lip and moved in front of Tammy, causing the brunette to still her actions. Sonja laid her hand on Tammy’s hip and smiled up at her. “You know Sebastian’s awkward, he isn’t laughing to annoy you.”

Tammy relaxed slightly, returning her girlfriend’s smile. The smile wasn’t one of her strongest, but it was a start. “I shouldn’t be so annoyed. I’m just moody today, I’m sorry, baby.”

Sonja nodded at Tammy and glanced over at Chris and Sebastian, who had been standing nearby, watching the scene. “You need to tell them, they’ll understand, T.”

Nodding, Tammy gave Sonja a quick kiss before walking over to her friends. She smiled at Sebastian in hopes to get the look of horror off of his face, internally smirking when her smile did the trick. “Listen, boys. I’m sorry for snapping, I’m just a bit moody today. I was just getting annoyed at having to keep you guys on track. I shouldn’t have snapped.”

Sebastian was the first to respond. “No, Tammy, I’m sorry for being immature. I should be able to hear ‘sixty-nine’ without laughing.”

Tammy shook her head, “No, baby. You’re okay.”

“Hey! You call me ‘baby’!” Sonja gasped, feigning hurt feelings.

Tammy laughed and Sonja and shook her head, “I call everyone ‘baby’. Although, when I say it to you, it’s different than me saying it to Sebastian.”

Sonja huffed and crossed her arms over her chest, glaring at Sebastian.

“And we’re back to being children,” Tammy mumbled, winking at Chris as she turned to walk away.

tags: @captain-dwayne-pride @stanathanxoox

oooh angst. I hope this is good enough for you!!

Sonja was angry about the situation from the moment Pride mentioned it. She had been happy to do more undercover work as it was something she missed from her ATF days, but this crossed a line. She hated going undercover with someone else, especially when she had to be in a relationship with the person. But the second Tammy’s name came from Pride’s lips, Sonja wondered if it was too late to back out. She didn’t want to have to pretend to be married to Tammy, living with her was enough.

Tammy was taken aback by Sonja’s immediate response to the assignment. Sure, the situation wasn’t ideal, but she didn’t think the idea was that horrible. Tammy wasn’t aware that Sonja found her that repulsive.

“Explain it to me again, why do we need to pretend to be married?” Sonja asked, crossing her arms over her chest as she glared at Pride. It wasn’t that Sonja hated Tammy, it was the complete opposite. Sonja liked Tammy in a more-than-roommates way. Having to pretend to be married to her would be torture for Sonja.

“Our guy targets couples, specifically lesbian couples. It isn’t the ideal situation, but we need to exhaust all of our resources and this was a smart move.” Pride looked to Tammy, who had taken a step away from the group after Sonja’s outburst.

If Tammy was being honest, she was hurt by Sonja’s comments. Surely by now Sonja knew Tammy was gay, so was this some form of “we can be friends as long as you don’t hit on me” homophobia? Tammy had absolutely no clue how to take Sonja’s opposition to the the assignment. If it wasn’t homophobia, what could make Sonja so uncomfortable with the situation?

Tammy spoke up after a few seconds under Pride’s gaze. “We don’t have to do it. I just thought it was a good idea. I’m sorry I brought it up,” she directed her apology to Sonja, who completely avoided her gaze. Tammy was unsure of what to do, she thought Sonja didn’t care about her sexuality, but this made her doubt her beliefs.

The room was filled with silence as Tammy stared at her feet and Pride stared at Sonja, searching for any indication of the reasoning behind her disapproval of the assignment. The tension in the room could be cut with a knife, nobody knew what to say next. Tammy waited for Pride to tell them to come up with a new plan, but the moment never came.

Pride looked between his two agents, who had been completely avoiding eye contact with the other, and shook his head. He wasn’t going to let whatever was going on between them affect the investigation, there were women who deserved justice in the middle of all of this. “No, New York. We’re going to do it. Percy, whatever you have against this case, you need to have it sorted out. You both are great agents and you need to focus on the investigation, not personal feelings.” When he saw Sonja begin to object, he continued speaking. “I’m going to leave the room, you guys need to sort out whatever is going on.”

As he walked out of the conference room, Tammy turned to Sonja. She wanted answers and she wasn’t going to sit around as the other woman danced around the subject. She was determined to figure out what the other agent had against being fake married to her.

“So? What is it? What is so terrible about being fake married to me, Sonja?” Tammy snapped.

Sonja looked up at the ceiling and swallowed thickly before she responded. “It’s not what you’re thinking, I promise.” She made a step toward Tammy, wanting to get the conversation closer to it’s ending. Looking up at Tammy through her eyelashes, Sonja reached out for Tammy’s hand.

Tammy raised an eyebrow, but allowed Sonja to hold her hand. The second Sonja began to rub circles on the back of her hand with her thumb, Tammy knew exactly what was happening. This current scene mirrored several situations she had been in before and she knew how to handle it. Taking control of the situation, Tammy’s hands made their way to the sides of Sonja’s face. Without a second thought, Tammy pulled Sonja’s face to her own and pressed their lips together.

Sonja relaxed as she felt Tammy’s lips against hers, this was exactly what she had been wanting to happen for months. She couldn’t believe she was really kissing Tammy, it felt like a dream. When Tammy pulled away, Sonja’s eyes remained closed, she was worried she would open them and find out this was a dream. After a minute, her eyes fluttered open and she was met with the sight of Tammy smiling back at her.

“That’s why I had a problem,” Sonja whispered. “I wanted whatever was between us to be real, not just for a case.”

this one isn’t that great so I’m going to go ahead and apologize.

Tammy shook off the comment as she jogged to catch up to Sonja, who had left the room a few moments before her. As Tammy walked through the doorway, she leaned against the wall to search for Sonja, knowing the other woman couldn’t have gone too far. Normally Sonja would wait for her when they left a room together, but this time had been different. The girl that they had been speaking to asked to speak alone for a moment with Tammy and Sonja left at the first chance she got.

A smile grew on Tammy’s face as she walked into the kitchen to see Sonja leaning against the counter and sipping a cup of tea. Forgetting the reason she chased after Sonja, Tammy stood in silence as she watched the other woman and took a moment to admire her peacefulness. It wasn’t often that she had the opportunity to see Sonja like this, but the moments have grown more common since they moved in together.

Tammy’s staring was interrupted when she heard Sonja clear her throat, obviously catching the other agent staring. WIth a shake her of head, Tammy thought back to the reasoning of her confusion. She looked at Sonja with a perplexed gaze and bit her lip. “Why did someone just tell me that they ship us? What does that even mean?”

Sonja’s eyes widened at Tammy’s questions and she barely had a moment to swallow her tea before she was subject to the other agent’s glare. “Uh,” Sonja dragged out, trying to buy herself time. “Shipping is when someone thinks that two people should date. Like “relationship”? They think there should be a relationship. It’s a common term used by teens.”

Tammy blushed and nodded slightly. “I see,” she muttered.

“Is that what Lily was talking to you about?” Sonja gasped, referring to the teenager they had just been speaking to in the conference room.

“Maybe,” Tammy squeaked, growing increasingly uncomfortable with the situation. She had done a decent job at keeping her feelings for Sonja hidden for the past few months and this conversation was making it increasingly difficult.

Sonja raised an eyebrow, “Maybe? You spoke with her and then asked me why somebody said they shipped us. Did you forget I solve crimes for a living?” she teased, stepping closer to Tammy.

Tammy swallowed thickly as she stared down at Sonja, taking a deep breath.

Sonja smiled up at Tammy and laid her hand on the other woman’s arm, taking the final steps until she was directly in front of Tammy. “Is it a bad thing that Lily “ships” us?” she asked in a low voice, her eyes falling to Tammy’s lips.

Shaking her head slightly, Tammy leaned down and captured Sonja’s lips in an abrupt kiss.

Sonja flinched slightly, surprised that Tammy had made the move, but quickly started to kiss Tammy back, relaxing against her lips.

Tammy met Sonja’s lips once life before she finally pulled away and smiled down at the woman. “I’ve been wanting to do that for so long,” she whispered, brushing the back of her hand against Sonja’s cheek.

this is probably not what you were expecting, but here’s what popped into my mind. also, I apologize for not posting anything in a while, I’ve had a rough couple of days. on with the fic!

I’m going out, I’m gonna drink myself to death.

And in the crowd, I see you with someone else

I brace myself, because I know it’s going to hurt

But I like to think at least things can’t get any worse

I hope that you see me, cause I am staring at you

But when you look over, you look right through

Then you lean and kiss her on the head

And I never felt so alive and so dead

hurricane drunk, florence + the machine

Tammy had enough. She was done moping around because Sonja started dating someone, she was done pretending everything was okay. Tammy was ready to lose control, she wanted to drink her sorrows away. She knew she needed a safe place to drink, but it couldn’t be in her apartment. She grabbed her keys and headed to Pride’s bar, a place she knew she could drink without having to worry about her well-being.

On the ride to the bar, Tammy’s head was filled with spiraling thoughts — thoughts of her feelings for Sonja. She had liked the woman for months now, but she knew Sonja would never see her the same. Tammy hated herself for falling for her coworker and roommate, but at the same time she knew she couldn’t have controlled these feelings. Sure, she could have prevented them by not spending as much time with Sonja, but she craved Sonja’s presence from the moment she met her.

Arriving at the bar, Tammy headed straight for the bar. She pushed her way through the crowd, knowing it was the only thing keeping her from the numbness the alcohol would provide her with. She slid into the seat at the bar and slammed her keys on the bar top to get the bartender’s attention.

“Tammy!” the woman behind the bar exclaimed, moving over to the moping agent.

“I need a vodka soda, light on the soda…  actually just make it vodka. Pride is going to regret letting us drink free here,” Tammy mumbled, her eyes scanning the crowd as she did so. Any other night, she would have found a girl to take home to ignore the pain in her chest when she thought of Sonja. But tonight was different, tonight she needed to drink. Alcohol would be the only thing to help her.

Lucy, the bartender, leaned against the counter as she set the drink in front of Tammy. “Wanna talk about it, T?”

“I’m feeling unwanted emotions,” is all Tammy provided. She downed the drink in one gulp before setting it back on the bar. She handed her keys to Lucy with a sigh. “Don’t let me drive home tonight. No matter how much I try to convince you otherwise. I’m planning on drinking myself to death.”

Lucy rolled her eyes and tucked Tammy’s keys into her pocket, knowing she was going to have to all but call Pride to keep Tammy from trying to drive home. “Will you at least tell me what these feelings are?”

“I’ve liked this woman for a few months. She will never like me. She has a girlfriend now. I didn’t even know she liked women until she brought her home one night. The girlfriend is perfect, too. She’s a doctor, she’s gorgeous, she has this cute laugh. Hell, if I didn’t like Sonja so much I’d go for her too.”

“Sonja? As in Sonja Percy?” Lucy asked as she filled Tammy’s glass. She grimaced slightly as she noticed Sonja dancing with a woman across the bar and prayed Tammy didn’t see the scene. She knew how much it would crush the other woman and she didn’t want her to have to experience that.

Tammy lifted the glass to her lips and nodded. “The one and only,” she replied, sipping her drink. “Hence the drinking.” She stared at the bottom of her glass, wondering when her life had come to this. Sure, she had crushes on girls she’d never have a chance with in her past, but never on her best friend —her roommate and coworker as well— and never this serious. Tammy found herself wanting to be near Sonja constantly, her chest ached when Sonja was with her girlfriend. She had never felt so strongly about someone before, and she would never get the chance to express those feelings.

Sipping on her drink, Tammy glanced around the bar once more. She hoped to find some girl to get her mind off of Sonja, but unfortunately, her eyes landed on the one person she had no desire to face. Tammy gulped as she stared at Sonja, wishing the woman in her arms had been herself. She wanted to feel what it was like to dance with Sonja, to lose herself in the music with Sonja at her side. Tammy wanted to know what it was like to love Sonja. Secretly, she wished Sonja had noticed her staring, it would be the first time Sonja paid her any attention in weeks.

Of course, when Sonja looked up, she stared directly past Tammy. Her eyes fell to the bartender, who had been standing a few feet away from the brunette. This crushed Tammy, Sonja had completely looked through her, not even noticing that she had been staring. To make matters worse, and to completely shatter Tammy’s heart, Sonja leaned and kissed her girlfriend on the head before giving her full attention once more.

Tammy could feel her heart shatter as she watched the scene in front of her. Her face fell and she almost let the glass she had been holding fall from her hands. She had never felt so hopeless before, she didn’t know exactly what she was feeling. Things couldn’t get any worse for her, she had hit rock bottom. With a sigh, she turned back to the one thing she had left and swallowed it, ignoring the glare from Lucy. She was ready to ignore her problems, Tammy Gregorio was temporarily checked out of the real world for the night.