#perasonal

i havent touched a blade to my hair in a month, but go ahead and bitch about how it isnt getting longer mum. i guess the thickening locks are just imaginary 🙃🙃

Today a lady came into work asking to see the cats so i told her where they were and sent someone over there.... She meant guinea pigs...

Y ahora me doy cuenta que soy la calma y la tormenta, que soy el rayo y el cielo sereno. Y me encanta que podamos controlar esa dualidad.

I went through my notifications over the years and holy shit. The amount of people who still reblog from me or at least still on my feed, that reblogged from me years ago. Hi. Thanks.

Happiness & depression each take a side & tug on me as if I’m the rope . They dig their feet in the sand & prepare to pull hard & go back & fourth until one caves . There are days where I am bursting with rays of sunshine & days where I am as sour , moody & sarcastic as an old man . The dosage I was on for anti depressants helped for awhile but I’ve strongly felt the urge to have it upped . My doctor agreed to it & we’re trying it out but I’m so convinced that I’m just bipolar & need to be put on something stronger . I’m so afraid of adding another medical “ problem “ to the situation because it’s only one more thing to convince myself I’m not good enough because of . I fucking think of my partner all the time & the shit he endures from me & my moods . There are days when I possibly don’t know how he continues to love me because I’m a depressed , cynical asshole when I’m not happy or getting my way . I just want to be able to ride the good out & not endure these low points . They are so hard to bare through at times & I really do feel alone because I don’t want to put the weight of my depression or manic self on anyone .