#penis meows

absolutely obsessed with the idea of alpha dave and rose doing everything they can to be parents to children they will never ever meet. dave filming pbs style educational videos for baby dirk and rose recording herself doing dramatic readings of bed time stories for lil roxy. hidden presents around the house that say "Open only on your 8th birthday" and "for when youre 12". leaving pictures of themselves in the kids home so they know that even though they're alone, this person loved them and did their best to make an apocalypse livable for them. video recordings and handwritten notes and instruction manuals and nonperishable food and "i dont know you but i love you" and "ill never get to meet you but im proud of you" and "youll never know me but i did my best to take care of you" in every way they knew how

forbidden knowledge is knowing I can have a lil swig of dayquil whenever I want like i dont gotta be sicky for a sippy I have to live with tbis temptation

me trying to find a way to convey whatever emotions are happening in my body to my therapist: have you ever played night in the woods?

thinking about how roxy was only able to develop alcoholism at 16 thanks to alpha rose prepping the house with bottles and bottles of booze for her to drink. how any teenager would develop one in that kind of situation, how the amount of alochol was almost like encouragment

to me dirk strider looks absolutely and totally cool. like he looks SO awesome with his piercings and the way he ends up standing in some sort of model pose, but this all falls apart the moment he opens his mouth to speak or he moves at all

this DID book uses 'you-all' a lot to include everyone in the system and all im saying is 'yall' is right there