love makes us blind
tommy shelby x reader
summary: tommy and the reader grew up together and were always really close. the reader always had feelings for tommy, but he only learns to return them when grace insults the reader and leaves the town.
warnings: angst, cursing,
important: request are open, you can send me anything you want <3 and no hate to grace, her character would never be this mean!!
authors note: part 2 đ part 3
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there you were. you stood in front of the big building your childhood best friend would celebrate his wedding in. sounds wonderful, doesnât it? sadly you couldnât be too happy for him, because you were not the person he would marry. the real ceremony was already over and at the thought of tommy standing there in his expensive suit, watching grace walking down the aisle with the biggest of smiles, could make you throw up.
you felt like the most selfish person on earth for not being happy for him, but you couldnât bring yourself to put on a fake smile once again and acting like you wouldnât want to slap grace across her face. you knew the two faces of grace. you had always suspected her, since she suddenly showed up at the garrison acting like the new barmaid. and you still couldnât understand how tommy could trust her again after she betrayed him by spying on him.
luckily you were not the only person who mistrusted grace. polly couldnât understand either why tommy once again collected all his trust and gave it to her, but she still forced herself to be nice to her on their wedding day, for tommyâs sake. you and polly always got a long really well. since you were close with all the shelbys from a very young age you were practically in the family. tommy and you always were the closest, you would play and laugh together, when you were kids, but you could also cry on his shoulder when some boy broke your heart, wich would be beaten up by tommy within minutes after he would see you wasting tears on that âbastardâ
when the two of you were starting to grow up, your feelings for him would grow stronger. it was obvious to anyone but him and when he met grace, your whole world shuttered down on you. you were there for him when she left, when she betrayed him. comforted him, distracted him by taking him on horse rides like you would do as kids, you even made sure he ate enough, wich he never really did either way, but it got worse when grace left.
and now you stood just in front of the house, tommy would probably dance with grace right now, in. you felt like she was always jealous of your relationship with tommy, because whenever tommy was not around, she would make rude comments on how you look, âaccidentallyâ knocking of your hot cup of tea over your dress and laughing it off with her clumsiness, when tommy would enter the room, but you never said anything to tommy, thinking it was just her jealousy.
as you heard the loud music leaving the house in loud sounds, you considered just to go home and go to bed, to forget about this awful day, it wasnât like somebody would miss you here anyway. you were ripped out of your thoughts, as the big wood door opened and a face you were not pleased to see looked out of it. grace stepped outside and closes the door behind her. âwhy are you out here? you wouldnât want to miss the brides first dance, would you?â she asked, smiling devilish. you took a deep breath before answering. âitâs over grace. you won, arenât you happy now? why canât you finally leave me alone?â
grace looked at her for a few moments. âis that even a question? i did not win until i removed you out of tommyâs life. you think i donât notice your little crush on my husband, the way you look at him? i will not let you get through with seducing him this easily.â she said through gritted teeth. an angry expression on her face. âseducing him? grace i think you misunderstood, i never trie-â you were cut of by grace wrapping her hands around your throat and squeezing it tightly. you were in shook. âyou little whore listen to me: you stay away from my husband or i will make you leave myself. i do not want to see you around this town ever again, you understand me?â grace threatened in a low voice. her grip was so tight now, you couldnât breathe and barely see anymore. âgrace i ca-â you tried to say, before he let go of your throat in an abrupt movement. âthat was just a taste of what happens to you, if you disobey meâ she spat, before turning her heel and disappeared in the big house.
you leaned against the wall of the house and tried to collect your breath. your throat hurt and your mouth was dry. you waited for a few minutes before you left the wedding, to go to your apartment.
on the next day you entered the arrow house, hoping for your life you wouldnâtât stumble upon grace. you went to tommyâs office immediately and got through with nobody seeing you. you knocked on the door and entered, after hearing his deep voice say âcome inâ you closed the door behind yourself and looked at tommy, who was deep into some paperwork. when he looked up he looked a bit surprised. ây/n?â you sat on one of the chairs in front of his desk. âwhere were you yesterday? i was looking for you.â tommy said as soon as you sat down. âi wasnât feeling well so i left earlier to go to sleepâ you lied, keeping your head down. âoh, why didnât you-â he stopped for a second, taking a closer look at her. tommy rose to his feet before asking ây/n, whats that on your neck?â you looked up and were met with his icy eyes. âi-â you wanted to start but decided to take a deep breath first. âthatâs why iâm hereâ you than said and took your coat of, so tommy could now fully see the dark, purple bruises grace left on your neck.
âwhat happened, who did that?â he asked, now walking over to you with a worried expression on his face. you once a agin took a deep breath and started questioning your behavior, maybe you should have just left. no, tommy deserves to know the truth, it would be selfish to leave him here with her. this thought gave you braveness, so you answered âgraceâ
his worried expression changed to a confused and sceptic expression. âwhat?â he couldnât believe you. âtommy, i know this is hard to hear, but yesterday, i was outside your house to get some fresh air and then she game outside and threatened me what would happen, if i would talk to you again that i should leave the town. and then she did thisâ your hand gestured to your throat.
tommy looked at you for a few moments with an expression you couldnât read, before he let out a chuckle. you looked at him confused. âwhere did you get this from y/n? do you even hear yourself talking? grace would never hurt anyoneâ he said now leaning against his desk. âyes tommy, she would. look at my throatâ you told him, hoping he would believe you now. ây/n listen, i know my wife very well and i do know that she is not a fan of violenceâ he answered. you heard an undertone of annoyance in his voice.
âoh god tommy, this is what she does to you! she spied on you and you think she wouldnât lie to you again? she shot a man in front of you didnât she? i didnât ever understand how you trusted her again anyway after what she has done!â you were annoyed and also hurt that tommy didnât believe your words. you knew each other since they were babies and he trusts a strange woman, who spied on him more than you?
ây/n give me a fucking break! i know you and polly donât like her but polly could bring herself to be nice to her on her fucking wedding day so why canât you? how did you even get that bruise? did you have a hot night? is that what you are, a whore? i donât know what went through your head to tell me this bullshit, but maybe you should think about what your imaginary grace tells you to do and leave!â he raised his voice at you. ďżźhe never rose his voice at you before, so you were shocked and also a little bit scared. tears were daring spill from your eyes and your whole body was shaking.
âtommy i-â you started, but he interrupted you soon. âwas i not clear enough for you? leave!â he spat. you never saw him this angry at you and it really terrified you. tommy sat back down on his chair and continued his paperwork. you wordlessly got up from your chair and left his office. you made your way out of the house quit, so nobody would notice your presence, before you let the tears spill when you got outside. on your way home you thought about were you could go, but nothing came to your mind. tommyâs angry voice still echoed through your head. when you were at home you grabbed your most important belongings and quickly went to the stables to get your horse, that tommy had given you for your last birthday. you greeted the beautiful, white stallion. after you saddled up you took a look to the streets. thankfully it was already dark outside, so one one would see you leaving.
on the next day tommy went to charlieâs strong yard and was greeted by curly mucking out some hay. âtommy, how are you?â he asked with his usual smile plastered over his face. âiâm good curlyâ he answered and went to stroke the mane of the grey race horse, that stood next to curly. âiâm really sorry about graceâ curly said while moving some hay out of the stable. tommy looked confused âwhat do you mean?â he asked. curly looked as confused as tommy looked. âdidnât you divorce?â he asked. tommyâs face went flustered. âwhat? no why would we divorce, we just marriedâ tommy said. âoh itâs just, i saw grace and y/n at your wedding. i donât know what happened between them, but i saw grace choking her. she nearly passed out. i thought she told you and you would have send grace away. i mean you were always so protective over y/n. but i probably misunderstood.â curly said. tommy froze. âi know, i would have helped her, iâm really sorry, but iâve been guiding a guest horse to the stables and it was acting crazy. have you seen y/n? i wanted to apologize to her personallyâ curly continued.
tommyâs heart stopped beating. y/n didnât lie to him. of course she didnât why would she? why didnât he believe her, he hadnât had any reason to mistrust her, but he had every reason to mistrust grace. how could he be this stupid. a wave of guilt washed over him, leaving goosebumps all over his body, when he saw your teary gaze in front of his inner gaze. he called her a whore for being choked. he felt disgusting.
âtommy? are you okay?â curly waved his hands in front of tommyâs face. he blinked a few times. âyes, iâm okay. i have to go nowâ he said while walking towards his black stallion. tommy made his horse gallop as fast as it could to get to your apartment. when he got there, he rushed up the stairs and knocked on your door. ây/n? itâs tommyâ he said and knocked again. âplease open the doorâ he asked while knocking on the door once again. you wouldnât open the door. tommy searched in his pockets for the spare key, you gave him when you moved in.
he unlocked the door and got into your apartment. he felt his heart in his chest breaking. the light was off, it looked so empty. the framed pictures you had all over your place were gone. he went into your bedroom to see your open and empty closet. he looked at your bookshelf. your favorite books were gone. âfuckâ he said to himself.
you were gone.















