#peachierants

I looked at their blog when I was feeling little and now I feel icky.

I’m feeling a little overwhelmed today /: I can’t drive yet (I’m almost 19) and my dad keeps breathing down my neck about it. They have a car for me and everything, and my little brother is about to get his permit. they keep saying he’s going to get my car because he’s taking more initiative than I am. On one hand, I get it. That being said, my step mom and my dad keep shoving it in my face about how much this car cost and how much they pay on it every month and it’s stressing me out.. driving is terrifying for me. I hate being in cars, let alone having to drive one. I have Panic Disorder so every time I try to drive, I have a panic attack because I’m worried that I’ll have one while I’m driving. I just..uunnggh. All I want is to be little all day and not have to worry about all of these adult things. I can’t handle this level of stress for very much longer ;-;

I really don’t appreciate being guilt tripped and manipulated. Like. Just don’t do it??? It’s awful and in some cases can lead to full blown breakdowns. I don’t understand why people do stuff like that. And I REALLY don’t understand why I’m such a target for it. It’s so much stress and anxiety and anger and shame and ugh, it’s too much