#peaceburgh

Immortality is clear and easy when we realize that our energy body, our soul and spirit, exists before our physical body. We all know this from basic science - energy does not die, it is only transformed. Knowing we are all energy, and from this energy expands our consciousness, we can conclude that we are all one. This, for anyone, should not be a big jump, or really, an enlightening realization. Our eternal life is not through our psychical bodies, but our energetic ones; Or what some call Mer-Ka-Ba, or shortened, Ka. We immortalize ourselves through ascension into higher consciousness when we practice higher thinking, meditation, visualization as well as active energizing exercises through practice with our psychical as well as our Ka, or light body. These practices vary, and can be found easily though practitioners of spiritual workers, yogis, mystics, modern and old age custom shamans, and even, get this, your local library.  What I am referencing is the term holistic- defined as a philosophy characterized by comprehension of the parts of something as intimately interconnected and explicable only by reference to the whole. Whole health- whole wellness. 

Right now we live in an age where a lot of stress is put on economy, higher education in it's most formal state of college and university, career, and generalized 'american dream' - a culture that has existed for awhile that has taught us there is a specific way in which we should live. A lot of these ideas are embedded in us at an early age. Some of us learn to question it at an early age as well. With this questioning, I have expanded on my ideas- the ideas I share with others, on what this culture exactly is, and what it should be called. What I came up with is Fear Culture. Why? Because when we start to question these things alone, we are in fear- we when we question them openly, and discuss it with others, we realize this fear exists in others as well. What is the fear of? Among other things, this fear is the fear of dying- our self, in a mundane system in which  we live. It is a fear of our 'revolution' - the way by which we have been taught to live, that if we fight this 'revolution' of the fear culture, we are fighting against this big dark monster of a creature that can easily destroy us. Our energy, our soul. For now we still live in this fear culture, and as a result, we are filled with not just as much, but disease - dis - ease, that produces ailments of depression, anxiety, cancer even, and more. 

We are slowly, individually, or as groups and communities, recognizing things for what they are. This is a start of a new revolution, one of awesome proportions. One that will create a new culture in which we can live, and flourish. We can do many things individually to support this cause, and should. We can do many things in our communities to support this cause as well. Educate, discuss, meditate. If we change it, we change ourselves in the process. The journey has always been happening, the path maybe not always so clear. Sometimes the ideas by which we live can get in the way and diminish our progress to a higher understanding, and more beautiful way in which we can live. These ideas at the same time were meant to exist so we could use the as footstools and ladders to overcome and move forward. Understanding this and changing this is why and how we can live forever.

Last night I fell asleep with tears, thinking about my life, and once again feeling like something is singularly missing from it, as I had felt before in my search for balance, before I had made it to New Orleans, and out. What happened in between that space and time and my presence in Pittsburgh, now seems futile. I made it here, and it stopped me from a path I was on, and redirected me back in my search; After 4 months, I feel now at a loss finally. It's now becoming my mission to figure out what to do, how to fill this missing piece, and where it may lead me is undecided, and by far unknown.....

Missing pieces of life. What are they? The idea of teaching always made me happy, and the fact is, we are all teachers, and learn and teach at the same time. It's not just about teaching, however. Missing pieces isn't, to me, something that remains internal. Happiness indeed is- it sprouts from an internal source. That is why one can choose not to suffer, and even to smile, when the circumstances of life seem hard, being left to deal with missing external pieces. The question becomes, what is missing externally? How did this come about? Was it always this way? 

For a moment, I thought to myself, 'Why don't I relinquish all of my possessions, with the exception of a sleeping bag, and travel by any means, to teach about love, acceptance, awakening, new culture, wherever I go? Why don't I follow in the steps of Jesus?' By no means in that thought process, or now, do I compare myself- it would be most vain to, if not openly in the fact I want to see myself as this archetypal teacher, a beacon of light, a conduction for goodness, and my desires for things exist, material, and otherwise, still. But it was, and is, a serious consideration for betterment, for myself, as well as others. A realistic consideration? Maybe not at this point, as the temperature drops, as time continues on me, and my questions begin to find answers in their own right.

What is missing? Community. How did this come about? Because of the culture that exists, and continues to exist, and the fear and distraction it perpetuates. Was it always this way? No. Why is it this way? Maybe because we are too busy asking 'Why not?' really, and caught up in it so very much, there seems no need to not be apathetic, to just not try. Is this a true answer? Possibly, at least for one person. Are there several answers to this question, or is there one final truth, like only one final reality? The reality being we are all one, after all. We all perpetuate these ideas, or events as much as we are in them, as much as we try to break free of them as well. The resolution however, thankfully, is very clear. Just as much as we cannot break free from life's cyclical events, we cannot break free from the progressing consciousness, even if some of us desperately try to cling to old ideals and ideas. What is the progressing consciousness? It is the recognition of the spiritual awakening in all of us, the activating force we are seeing to change things for the betterment of humanity, for the saving of our species, and the rest of the world in which we coexist with many other life forms, which would otherwise continue to be damaged and cease to exist. It is the acknowledgment that the world was not created for us, or for any other single species, but exists as a cosmic gift, with a very obvious systems of balance, that we have disrupted, because we, as a culture, have gotten it wrong, continuously. Progressing consciousness is not just recognizing the spiritual awakening, but acknowledging it as well, and accepting the things we need to face in our individual selves as well as us as a whole- seeing the darkness that exists, accepting it for what it is, and committing to the light. We are not flawed, we are just clumsy creatures. Our capacity for love shows this. 

Progressing consciousness is not alone seeing the activating force occurring, but becoming active in it. It is teaching, and learning, and finally doing. Because without action, it is not an actual continuing force. The progression of our consciousness has been ongoing- and as of lately, it has become very aware of itself as more and more individuals recognize things for what they are, and awaken into the connected reality we all share. By seeing that we share this, all of this, for gift, and what we sometimes believe is burden, we can open our hearts more, and extend our abilities to help the change. We do this through creating community, joining communities, and caring. We do this by group discussion, group meals and cooking together, guerrilla gardening, sharing energy through dance and party. We do this by group yoga, ceremony, meditation. We do this through free classes where we teach what we know to others, and learn what we can. We do this through falling down, and getting up- building strength and faith in each other. 

OMG it's overwhelming-

Over-whelping.

Gulping in life.

Why do you have a big head?

After I make that statement.

Yes, I will ride that pretend bike.

That real bike down.

Down with the gun violence.

Shit I want 10.

10 days, is that all there is?

Always an unnecessary count down.

Why isn't He gone yet?

Yes, He with a capital H- out the door.

I will accept Jesus.

Laughing, smiling.

I will accept many things- starting always today time traveler away

Away. AWAY.

Stay- no? Pause- infact stop, smell the roses.

Pick them if they are on the verge of dying.

And Thank You for telling me I rocked your world with those flowers.

Thank You for making me dance. I want to Shaman. 

Down with I, for Gods' sakes, God.

Happy Birthday too. 

I will braid that string again, of life well gathered,

And cook that ratatouille

While not being afraid anymore

Cause laughter is dangerously healing

Me + Love.

Come here often?

Do this more often.

While I wait for clean sheets, I will ride this pretend bike, and hope I don't hit potholes but brace myself slightly for that chance!

Yes, I am talking in a few parabals. 

Talking allowed/outloud- finally getting out of my head.

Thank You burning brightly, already dead.

Thank You, I am crying.

Thank You, Alanis Morisette... YES, I said it.