#pdd

I've been depressed for at least six years straight and at most for eleven years straight. I don't think it will get better, or maybe I just actually need to change my habits now that I'm an adult and can.

Can the grey mood filter switch off now? It's been on for years, it did get lighter somedays but still stayed on no matter what.

can i really tell a guy they met me in a bad part of my life if ill always be this way

AAAAAAA fuck my LIFE i woke up depressed, my sould is hurting, how the fuck am i gonna press on like this, i just wanna die, my whole life seems like a trash can fire, i know it's not actually, but my soul hurts i can feel it my chest too i hate this i hate it i hate it i hate it

I think chronic/ passive suicidal ideation is akin to the non descriptive feeling of homesickness while you are still at home. A sense of “I want to go home” without knowing what your brain means by “home”. All you know is you long for it