#pcos progress

two things i am struggling with. it seems as though both have fluctuated since my diagnoses, ranging from positive to very negative. more recently, my symptoms have worsened and my weight gain seems to be appearing out of nowhere. my OBGYN prescribed metformin for me (the medication i initially started on when was diagnosed), although i do hate taking medication. i stopped taking metformin when i was about sixteen and switched to birth control pills. they helped a lot with my acne and regulating my period. however, i plan to use the metformin as a crutch until i can finally commit to a permanent healthy PCOS lifestyle. 

my struggles mostly lie within my eating habits. it's hard to conform to a lifestyle of low carbs and constricted caloric intake. although i do LOVE healthy foods, i tend to binge when my cravings go haywire. i feel like that sets off a series of bad decisions like carbo loading and skipping the gym. this may not be an adequate excuse, but being surrounded by people with normally functioning endocrine systems doesn't help much either. losing weight and getting healthy is so much easier for the people i'm around daily, so i lack support and understanding of my struggle.