I think PBL has been the most challenging part of this so far. Independent study is fine! I can set my own pace and watch videos and pause them and nut the concepts out and then even discuss them with my unofficial study group friends. But PBL is so forced and some of my group members clearly don't want to be there and always push everything way out of the scope we are meant to be learning. They can't explain anything properly either - in that they don't use examples or full sentences or summarise things properly. It's complacency and laziness and arrogance and it means the rest of the group has to compensate for them by filling in the gaps and also the silences. By the end of the second 2 hour session with them I am extremely drained and thinking very dark things about myself. But at the end of today's session our facilitator came to me and said he could tell I was really, really trying and that I contribute in very meaningful ways to the group. I cried because it's so hard to hear that and yet I really needed it.
