I want to make sure that I'm practicing what I preach in terms of accountability. I've done bad things. I've defended terrible people, overstepped boundaries, I've lashed out at people I called friend too many times. Insulted, berated, I've been selfish and mean and self centered.
There was a time where, in my constant desperate need to feel loved and accepted, I would perform like a dancing monkey in the name of whatever person my Codependancy had latched on to at the time. And that desperation lead to me being deeply vitriolic to people who were hurting just as much as I was. I was also incredibly pedantic, having petty arguments with people who I should have been working with. People I should have been kind to. In the end, that was why I left the commentary community. Because spaces like that have always enabled the worst in me. I just didn't;t notice it until what I had done to Spawn.
So when people like @britts-galaxy-brain say I'm a menace.. well, she has every right to say so. I have, in fact, been a bitch to people who, in retrospect, did not deserve it. Usually in defense of my own abusers.
So.. yeah. I am sorry to everyone I treated poorly over the years. You deserved better.
