she had made herself the the center of attention after all, but at her downtrodden expression, the bard can't help but frown in sympathy. "lady l'arachel? do you have a moment?" he asks quietly as he sits beside her. "I…. ah, I have something I wish to show you."
hesitating for only a brief moment, his sketchbook is flipped to the latest page, a collage of dancers in motion. all the pairs are wearing l'arachel and forde's brightly patterned outfits, though only the first few also bear her exuberant smile and his dashing low ponytail. the rest are nearly featureless except for the joy clear in their pose, in the way their hips shake and their fists punch into the air — as if the artist knew it was not l'arachel he truly wanted to portray.
( there is also a scribbled side profile in the bottom corner, hidden by his hand. a boy with shigure's hair, but not his face. )
he sighs, tapping his fingers against the paper. "I am sorry the judges didn't understand. but I think I might, after you explained your outfit to me. you honored your friends with all your heart," he says sincerely, hand stilling. "so much so that even I, a mere artist who has never seen that world, can begin to know it, just a little."
it is another he will hold in memory, in his own unremarkable way. at last, he finds a smile — not as bright as hers was earlier tonight, but suffused with warmth nevertheless.
"even though tonight ended badly… I hope, eventually, you can remember it fondly still."
Yet again she finds herself approached after the absolutely abysmal showing that she put on in front of the entire academy. She dreads the thought of just how many people have seen her moment of weakness.
Shigure being one of them feels like the entire world conspiring to play a joke on her. Their first meeting, they were both putting on fake, ridiculous personalities for some trifling amusement.
Now, at the ball, at this place where L’Arachel was supposed to prove herself and how brilliant she was, he instead got to see the absolute worst part of herself; a childish temper tantrum that ruined the fun and a heart exposed way, way too far.
She wishes she could simply avert her gaze, shut her eyes, or otherwise ignore him, but pushing people away would only make things worse. Who is she, really, to try and push people away? She has always wanted to be in the spotlight, has she not? She has made her proverbial bed, now it is time to lay in it.
She lets herself look at whatever it is Shigure wishes to show her, unsure of what to expect from the book he is holding. Perhaps a review of her performance that amounts to the same thing as the judges said, but in a way that tries to placate her? As if she did not know they spoke the truth, much as she hated it…
Finally, he stops on a page, and L’Arachel feels her breath taken away as she gazes upon its contents. A scene of joyous dance, happy and with a lack of judgement. Between the positive energy, and the bold, confident, brilliant poses, she is reminded of things like the moving pictures she had seen at her home, the dancing game she had played occasionally in the arcade, or even just seeing others goof around as she explored the city.
Even the dancers' lack of features, whilst surely meant to ease Shigure’s workload, ends up reminding her of how everyone else looked in that world.
She pulls back; not because she no longer wishes to stare at that beautiful scene. She merely does not wish to stain it with any tears that threaten to spill out, both due to the drawing, and his magnificently kind words.
"Shigure... I find myself at a loss for words. And that is quite a rarity indeed." She exhales in the smallest of laughters. "You captured everything so beautifully. For a moment, I truly felt like I was back in that gorgeous world, with no troubles or worries in sight." A small smile makes her way onto her face; a melancholy one, but a smile nonetheless.
"I... I hope I shall be able to remember this night fondly too." Her words come off as shaky, and there is a part of her that feels that will simply not happen, even if logically, she knows it will.
"Regardless of if that happens or not, however, the one thing I most certainly shall remember is the kindness you have shown me, Shigure." She falls silent for a moment, before a small chuckle escapes her lips. "I cannot help but think back to when we first met; you having joked about possibly being a very mean person in reality. That could not have been further from the truth, could it?" She lets out another small laugh, before a small, earnest smile forms on her face.
"I truly am glad I have gotten to see the real Shigure. You have my promise, next we meet you shall see me in full splendor, no issues weighing me down." She offers; both as a form of apology to her friend, and as an incentive for herself to move on past the awful parts of this year's ball.