#partofthetribe

My computer took me on a trip down memory lane this morning. I was messing around with the new features and I hit the play all button by my pictures. It showed pictures of fun days I'd forgotten about.. places I'd seen.. moments that had faded. But most of all it showed me you. And us. And it showed me how happy I was and it reminded me how lucky I had been and how much I had squandered. It showed me the letter you wrote me. It showed me my prom. I remember, and the only thing I regret is that it ended.

Do you remember when we used to be best friends? Cause I do. Do you remember when going a day without talking was much too much? Cause I do. Do you remember all the plans we made? Cause I do. Do you remember when there were no secrets between us? Cause I do. Do you remember when we used to laugh when we thought about each other. not cry? Cause I do. Do you remember when pictures together crowded our phones and facebooks? Cause I do. Do you remember count downs til the next time we would see each others faces? Cause I do. Do you remember being potatoes and doorknobs? Cause I do. Do you remember when we used to skype all the time? Cause I do. Do you remember when NFTY was fun because it was always me and you? Cause I do. Do you remember when boys hadn't gotten in the way? Cause I do. Do you remember me? I don't think you even do.

I miss you. I miss our crazy friendship. I miss staying up late and sharing secrets. I miss spending every possible moment together. I miss skyping. I miss having someone to share everything with. I miss matching buttons and the coke bottle. I miss sitting on the porch in the morning while you were sick listening to sounds from down below. I miss holding hands and skipping around. I miss rooming together. I miss hooking each other up. I miss fighting over which one of us was prettier. I miss knowing every aspect of each others lives. I miss taking silly pictures. I miss pillowpets and onsies. I miss planning what was going to happen the next time we saw each other months in advance. I miss the trio, you, me, and E. I miss knowing that every kallah would be perfect because I had my best friend. I just miss you being my best friend. I know things have gone so very wrong, but can we ever fix them? I'd really like to try. For REAL this time.

I'm so lucky I met you