it took me until now to accept that I am no longer involved with him, that i am no longer in a complicated situation of liking someone with *almost* all my heart and with that certain someone showing signs of liking me as well but is maybe too shy to say they like me too. sad to say i have only come to this realization due to the fact that i have been living these past few months like a ghost in the life of someone who. no matter how much i haunt or rattle with signals, choose to be a nonbeliver and not even acknowledge the heaviness of my heart and bring me to a closure. i hope that he wakes up from a deep slumber choking and whispering my name into the darkness of his room and feel the absence that i have left him with. i want him to feel the misery that i felt.
