019. hold onto this lullaby even when the musics gone.
It had been weeks since she and Drew had made that drive to see his mother and she hadnât brought it up since. She wanted to forget everything that wretched woman had said. Kennedy wished that she could erase the trauma from that entire encounter, but unfortunately, they were both stuck with it. The only good that came from it was knowing that their relationship was stronger than ever; Drew had pushed back when his mother had been quick to judge and Kennedy hadnât even had to put her foot down to make him do it. He had done it on his own.
But this particular morning, Kennedy had been woken far earlier than usual and the voice on the other end of the phone was shaky as she slipped into the living room of Drewâs apartment.
âMom?â
âHoney...itâs Grandma.â
Kennedy knew what had happened, in short, without any further detail. Grandma Mae was 96; well, she had been. Three different types of cancer, dementia, and type 2 diabetes. It was a miracle she had made it this far. Grandma Mae had helped raise the Marshall clan and had taught Kennedy so many things, she couldnât even name them all. This was a long time coming but it hit Kennedy out of no where.
âIt happened about an hour ago. We took her to the hospital...and...â
âAnd you didnât call me then?â
There was silence on the other end of the line for thirty seconds, at least. âThanks, Mom.â Sarcasm was her only defense when she was blind sided like this.
âHoney...â
âWeâll be there on the next flight.â
âWe?â
Kennedy took a quick breath and exhaled; the âweâ had sort of just slipped out. âYes, we.â And then, she hung up.Â
The thoughts swirled; her breathing slowed, though she had to truly concentrate to keep from breathing too fast. A few short steps and she was back in Drewâs bedroom. It was so familiar, climbing back into bed with him, that she didnât even have to think as she did it. She curled her body into him and nuzzled his arm a bit more roughly than she usually did. âDrew? Please, for once in your life, be easy to wake up...â If anything, just because she needed to hear his voice. To make sure he was okay.
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WHAT: Cobie goes to talk to Kenzi after finding out about the severity of her ADHD.
WHERE: Kenziâs room.
WHEN: Â Tuesday 21st June 2016.
WARNINGS: None.
Kenzi wasn't really sure how long she had been sitting inside her wardrobe, her back against the side and the shut door leaving her in darkness. It could have been hours for all she knew, but she didn't want to check her phone. Ever since her mother had admitted she had told Cobie everything there was to know about the severity of her ADHD and left the house, Kenzi was afraid to check and see any messages or missed calls. It was no secret to Cobie that she was terrified to fail at being a parent and mess it all up, but now she had what was basically evidence that it would probably happen. That Kenzi had never been fit to work or function by herself, let alone be a mother. Sniffing quietly, Kenzi wiped away the wetness around her eyes. It had been a long, hard and emotionally draining week. Now, with this, the daredevil was just too tired.
Kenzi almost jumped out of her skin when the closet door swung open, filling the space with harsh light. It took just a second to recognise the familiar frame, and although it send Kenziâs heart thumping in her chest, she couldnât help but turn her gaze away, both with shame and feeling apprehensive. As she felt Cobie sit down beside her, Kenzi wasnât really sure what she expected, but it wasnât the soft voice she heard. Cobie should have been angry, or hurt.. Or something. Something that wasnât so nice, because she didnât deserve it. âHi..â She replied, voice thick from the crying that had since stopped. Cobie coming back had to be a good thing.. At least, thatâs what she hoped. âI thought I was hiding away real good. I used to play hide and seek with myself and always won,â Kenzi shrugged, finally turning her head to face Cobie with puffy, sad eyes. Puppy eyes always worked on Cobie, no matter what, but this was perhaps the first time she actually hadnât pulled them on purpose. She felt awful, so the kicked puppy thing must just have been her life now. âMy mom told you,â She stated, lowering her eyes to stare at her hands, needing something to focus on that wouldnât make her crack. âI wanted to tell you.. I just didnât know how. Not with the babies and everyone else.. Thereâs a lot of.. Stuff right now.â
Cobie was more than a little shocked when suddenly Kenzi ended up in her lap. She'd been so sad for like a week, and not wanting to really engage in anything more than soft cuddling, and sweet kissing. Not that Cobie would ever complain about having a beautiful woman sitting on top of her. Grasping the back of Kenzi's neck, she deepened the kiss, her free arm wrapping around her slim waist to pull her closer. It felt like it had been forever since their lips touched like this, since there was something more than a sad vibe between them. "Never," she whispered as they pulled apart enough to speak. "I could never change my mind about you. Everyone else is wrong. You're perfect for me, and you're perfect for the babies. I know that you're going to try your hardest, and that's all that matters to me. Hiccups along the way can be overcome. I love you, and I want you. Nobody else. I want your everything. I don't care if our lives won't be perfect like those ones you see in movies. I don't care if sometimes you have bad days and just want to lay in bed with me. As long as we're together, that's all that matters to me. Just you, me, and the twins. I love you more than anything in the world. And I know you didn't purposely keep this from me, so don't worry about it. I'm just really glad I know now, so that I know how to help more when you're feeling sad." Cobie brushed her nose against Kenzi's, her hands sliding beneath the hem of her shirt to run them up the length of her back. Chuckling, she nodded in agreement. "Of course we are, but everyone needs a lil' crazy, right?" she grinned. It was so amazing to see Kenzi returning to her normal self, and Cobie felt like a huge weight had been lifted off her chest. "Besides, we'd never wanna be boring and normal. Where's the fun in that? We'd have to have super vanilla sex, and watch Downtown Abbey. No fucking thank you. I like the way we are just fine, even if people judge us."
Kenzi felt her whole body shiver as Cobieâs hands tickled against her back. It had been so long since she had really been accepting contact, and she missed it so much. She missed the closeness, but was just feeling too down to realize it. Perhaps it would have gotten her out of her funk faster. Cobieâs words washed over her like a warm breeze, and Kenzi couldnât dampen her smile. âI donât wanna ever be that boring.. Even when weâre old with grandkids and stuff, I wanna still have kinky sex and grope you in public.. And check you out like a fourteen year old boy because youâre super hot,â Kenzi grinned, brushing her thumbs lightly across Cobieâs cheeks. âI missed you. When I was sad and stuff. I missed being this close without my head being so busy yelling at me about telling you things. It sucked.. Because I just wanna be happy with you, and with the babies, but I wasnât letting myself. It seems real dumb now.â Kenzi shook her head softly, pressing a kiss to Cobieâs forehead. âYou kept saying weâd get through stuff and work it out. I just donât listen sometimes. I donât know why I was hiding it from you. I hate secrets. I hate secrets from you even more,â Kenzi sighed before sending Cobie a coy smirk through the dark. âI wanna show you something,â She suggested, moving to her feet and holding her hands out to help Cobie up off the closet floor. Pushing the door open, Kenzi laced their fingers together as she led them out of her bedroom, and towards the office. Keeping their hands tightly clasped, Kenzi made a beeline for a filing cabinet, fishing through for just a moment before pulling out a thick file, only then dropping Cobieâs hand. âAll my stuff is in here. You should have a look. It ainât bad or nothing.. You just told me a lot about you and I just donât know⊠What to say about most of this.â
Cobie smirked and shook her head at Kenzi's words. At least she was getting back to her old self. She'd missed her more than she even realized. "We won't be. We'll be having so much kinky sex when we're old that we'll pop our hips, and end up in hospital. All the other oldies will complain about how in love we are, because they'll totally be jealous. We're always gonna have this thing between us, babe. The whole not being able to keep away from each other." Cobie nuzzled into Kenzi's touch, and a soft smile tugged at the corners of her lips. "I missed you too, baby. I hated seeing you so down and sad, and I just wish I could have made it better sooner. I wish that I could make the loudness stop for you. You can be happy with me, you just have to remember that you can tell me anything and everything," she said softly, her eyes fluttering closed as she felt soft and familiar lips against her forehead. "It doesn't matter now. It's out in the open, and I know everything. We will always come out on top, because that's what soulmates do. They pull each other back up when one falls down." Cobie's eyebrow quirked upwards as Kenzi told her she wanted to show her something, and she took her hands and allowed herself to be lead towards the office. Her thumb brushed over the back of Kenzi's hand soothingly as they walked. When they entered the room and the other girl began rummaging through the filing cabinet, Cobie's brow furrowed in confusion. When a file was placed in her hands, her confusion only grew. At least until Kenzi explained what it was. "Oh, really? Are you sure?" she asked, taking a seat on the desk and opening it up. She was warmed that her girl trusted her so much, and that she wanted her to know absolutely everything. Pulling out a scan, she studied it with curious eyes. "Is this your brain?" she asked, smiling up at Kenzi. "It looks really cool. I mean, like, it's kinda beautiful? Like art."
Cobie felt a surge of warmth spread through her body as Kenzi told her just how important she was. She'd never meant this much to someone, and sometimes it felt a little overwhelming. But knowing that someone wanted her to know so much about them, and that they wanted her to be able to understand them the best out of everyone was an amazing feeling. Unbeatable, even. The fact that Kenzi wanted her to be the only one besides her parents to know her this well was an honor. Her cheek flushed red when she felt lips against it, and she didn't even try to stop the contented sigh that left her lips. "My brain is probably all scrambled, and most of it is probably dead from all the weed," she teased. "Nowhere near as awesome as yours." She watched carefully as Kenzi pointed out the different part of her brain, and she studied it carefully. "So, like, it affects the frontal region?" Cobie asked, biting down on her lower lip in concentration, as she tried to make out what everything was. She'd paid attention in science and biology class, so it wasn't like she was completely clueless, but it did all look confusing without a diagram to help her out. "Yeah. The pills increase the dopamine, right? I learned about that before from a book." Reaching behind her, Cobie cupped Kenzi's cheek, then tilted her head back to kiss her sweetly. "It doesn't need to be fixed. You're perfect the way you are," she replied softly. "I'm glad that the pills help, though. I just wish I coulda helped you more when you were sad, y'know? Like, I didn't know that ADHD can give you downers like that. If I'd have known, I wouldn't have like, kept pushing so hard to make you happy again? It's not like... I didn't wanna force you to be happy. I just really hate seeing you sad, because you don't deserve to be. I'd like... I mean, of course I'd still try and cheer you up, but I wouldn't have made you get outta bed if you just wanted to cuddle... I dunno. I guess I'm just sorry if I've ever done anything that makes you feel worse? I have a lot to learn."
Cobie let out a soft sigh of relief when Kenzi told her that she didn't need to apologize. She'd been worrying that she'd perhaps been pushing her too much, and hearing that she hadn't was like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. The last thing she'd ever want to do to another person was make them feel like they had to shove their feelings to the side to please her. "You âareâ the best person I know. And the person I love the most in the entire world. Your sad and boring is just you being a sad and cuddly puppy to me, and I could lay there and hold you all day. I want all sides of you, like I said before. If you're ever that sad again, I'm just gonna lay on top of you like a protective starfish. Maybe kiss you a little, too," she grinned. Getting up from the desk, Cobie walked around it to move and stand behind Kenzi, wrapping her arms around her waist and crouching slightly to rest her chin on her shoulder. "Your mom told me about school. I just wanna let you know that, if you still remember the names of the kids who were mean to you, I will track them down and flaunt how hot I am in their faces before kicking them and telling them you're the smartest, and that I'm gonna marry you, and also have babies with you." Cobie pressed her lips to Kenzi's neck, letting them linger their for a moment as she inhaled the scent of what could only be described as 'home'. "You always smell so good," she mumbled against warm skin, finally pulling her her back to speak. "Anything you wanna know about me?" Cobie asked. "Seeing as like, you've revealed so much of yourself to me tonight. It's only fair you get to ask something, if there's anything you can think of."
Cobie rolled her eyes playfully at Kenzi's comment, glad that she felt back to herself enough to make a dirty comment. "Maybe later, gorgeous." She watched with eyes full of love as the girl moved to sit on the edge of the desk, her stomach swarming with butterflies as she was pulled to stand between strong, toned legs. Being so close to Kenzi always made her heart feel like it was going to burst right out of her chest, and she was surprised that the fast thumping couldn't be heard by everyone in the house. She crinkled her nose and shrugged as she was asked if people were mean. "Yeah... Kind of. I was quiet. Like, really quiet. I didn't talk to anyone, and I started smoking weed at sixteen. So, like, I was just kinda known as the loner pothead? I preferred it that way, though. I got a girlfriend that I met when I stayed behind to do more art after school one day. Things got a little worse when that happened, but also a little better? I dunno. It was hard. It wasn't like I didn't wanna be friends with anyone, but my anxiety held me back. I met Ofelia just as school ended, so that kinda sucked. I didn't even have her. I was okay, though. I got mean comments made toward me for a lot of stuff, including knowing shit. It's why I find it easier to act like I know nothing. People prefer it when you don't, y'know? It gives them a power over you, because then they feel like they can tell you shit, and order you around, even if you have an IQ of 137. I dunno. Yeah. People were mean, but it's whatever. They suck." With a smile, Cobie leaned into Kenzi's touch before pressing their lips together. "You're right. And I probably woulda dated you and been happier sooner. But at least we have each other now, and really, the mean shit just made us stronger, you know?"
Cobie couldn't stop the impish grin that made it's way onto her face as Kenzi voiced her frustration. Her hands moved to rest on top of the ones gripping at the hem of her pants, making sure they didn't start wandering. "Well, once truth day is over, you can do as many unpure things as you want to me on it. But like, only if your dad isn't around. I don't want him to see us doing it. Your mom has accidentally witnessed it enough for the both of them. I'm kinda starting to feel bad about it..." The amount of time Estela had walked in on them in compromising positions within the past few months was ridiculous, and Cobie was pretty sure that the woman must have been at least slightly traumatized from seeing her daughter in such...less than vanilla acts of intimacy. "Definitely fuck the people we like sometimes. Our friends can be the biggest assholes. Like, they hurt me the more than the kids at school did sometimes. So yeah, fuck the school people, and also fuck our friends when they deserve it." Cobie smiled against Kenzi's lips, her hands moving up to tangle in soft, cinnamon scented locks. "Mm, we probably should. But I like hiding away from everyone with you," she mumbled as she pressed a kiss to the corner of Kenzi's mouth. "She probably is really worried, though. But like, I think she knew there was no chance of me leaving you. She told me she'd see me later when I left to think for awhile. I think she's our biggest fan," Cobie chuckled, tugging at Kenzi's hair gently to expose her throat, her lips peppering kisses over it. "Alright, let's go, 'cause the longer we stay here, the more our lips and hands are gonna wander. We should go get Taco Bell after we tell your mom you're okay. I'm like, starving... And I bet you are now you're a happy future mama bear again."