#pantuom

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Scraps of memories flutter by On my vision continuously As here on my bed I lie Waiting should they stop eventually

On my vision continuously I see fragments of what I once was Waiting should they stop eventually Waiting if they ever pause

I see fragments of what I once was Full of hope and determination Waiting if they ever pause I am trapped in an inquisition

Full of hope and determination The people all laugh and smile I am trapped in an inquisition Caged in a world of hatred and bile

The people all laugh and smile While i’m here left to wither away Caged in a world of hatred and bile Never again to see the light of day

I’m here left to wither away Here on my bed I lie Never again to see the light of day Scraps of memories flutter by

I wanted to be just like him

We did things together, we were a team

He taught me how to flip a fried egg

I wanted to learn, I was just five

We did things together, we were a team

The walker kept him inside, unwieldily on the stairs

I wanted to learn, I was just five

I was too little to be much help

The walker kept him inside, unwieldily on the stairs 

He yelled at the news, and often was sad

I was too little to be much help

But I laughed at his jokes or when he would tease

He yelled at the news and often was sad.

With his coaching there was little I couldn’t do

I laughed at his jokes or when he would tease

He taught me to tie my own shoes

With his coaching there was little I couldn’t do

I was brave because he believed

He taught me to tie my own shoes

Sometimes it’s harder to be the one that survives

I was brave because he believed

We had ten years together but only five I remember

It’s always harder to be the one that survives 

He taught me that smart people say what they mean

 We had ten years together, five that I remember

I wanted to be just like him

I know that that smart people say what they mean 

Scraps of memories flutter by On my vision continuously As here on my bed I lie Waiting should they stop eventually

On my vision continuously I see fragments of what I once was Waiting should they stop eventually Waiting if they ever pause

I see fragments of what I once was Full of hope and determination Waiting if they ever pause I am trapped in an inquisition

Full of hope and determination The people all laugh and smile I am trapped in an inquisition Caged in a world of hatred and bile

The people all laugh and smile While i’m here left to wither away Caged in a world of hatred and bile Never again to see the light of day

I’m here left to wither away Here on my bed I lie Never again to see the light of day Scraps of memories flutter by

I dig for approval

like I dig my nails into

Griffin's back. It seems 

I've been digging for something my whole life:

                  for worms,

                 a portal to China,

                 my mother, or

                            the maternal love

                            I've had to build myself

                                  in my sternum.

I dig my nails into

     the house I've already  hollowed out.

I've always been   digging   for something:

I even search for giant koi in the bottom of my drinks.