#panic attack??

{^This is how it kind of feels to me}

My body feels disconnected with my mind; my heart is pounding and i'm shaking but I don't know why.

        "I want to be gentle" he breathes out, moving in to gingerly kiss his cousin's forehead. 

       His hands run all over the little man's body, finger tips going where lips longed to be. So slowly, like moving too quickly may shatter him the ox moved, his eyes squinting closed as if the pleasure of his company was too much for him to bear. "God." He gasps, clutching Miji closer. 

        Shives ran down his spin as the memory of going black tickled the back of his mind, bottled emotions bubbling up. It was like an itch he could not scratch a urge that grew in his belly knotting and tangling itself tight until it snapped. 

So I'm reading Pride Fiction with Steve from The Avengers just figuring out being Queer as a thing and getting the talk from Tony and I'm just shaking. 

Kinda have a clue why but still. Bundled up under the covers but it'd pass faster if I had someone I trusted to hug.

i might have an absolute panic attack bc i just pmed someone i’m a fan of to clear up something and I’m Absolutely Terrified