#paladins reader inserts

I was feeling really fluffy, I have requests I need to get to, but Shiro is my Bias and I want to do a full blown imagine of him :))) 

Space Daddy is my bias if you can’t tell already

I love everyone else too, but Shiro slightly more.

I’m so glad I got so many requests. 

Summary: Reader has been in toxic relationships and is broken by having her first fight with Shiro. Shiro being the sweetheart he is helps her open up and tells her he’s in love with her. <3 

Enjoy. <3

Warnings: Mention of abusive relationships/fluff/fluff

Things were perfect with Shiro, he was the perfect gentleman you never thought you would have.

You had, had your share of terrible relationships.

You’ve never gotten this far in a relationship without things getting toxic. It honestly made you nervous.

There wasn’t much time to unload your baggage or have deep talks with Shiro, you were in the middle of an intergalactic struggle to free all the planets from the wrath of the Galra.

But honestly you were more scared of things falling apart between you and Shiro.

You were sitting with the other Paladins at dinner, it was later than usual it’s been a long day. Everyone was in high spirits, Shiro was animatedly telling a tale of him and Matt during the Garrison days.

All the paladins hung onto every word, Pidge and Keith were emotionally invested in his telling. You weren’t listening, your mind was somewhere else.

Am I good enough for him? He doesn’t deserve to carry all my baggage.

Maybe I’m annoying. 

Earlier on in the day you had a small disagreement with him, it’s probably what inspired your pessimistic spiral. He said he was sorry. It wasn’t anything important, you barely remembered what it was about, but was the honeymoon phase over?

The conversation had shifted and you didn’t even notice, Pidge was talking about some michef her and her brother had gotten into.

 You felt the heat of Shiro’s eyes, he raised an eyebrow at you. It was a nonverbal question, he wanted to know if everything was alright.

You smiled shaking off your placid expression and nodded trying to reassure him that you were fine.

Everyone cleared their plates and went their own ways, it was late, tomorrow wouldn’t be any less chaotic so it was time to turn in for the night.

You were alone in the kitchen washing plates when Shiro came in.

“Hey is everything alright?” he asked leaning against the counter beside you.

“Ya, I’m fine” you dryly said, you weren’t in a talking mood.

“Are you still made from before? I apologized. Can we please just move on.” 

“I’m not mad, I’m just not in a talking mood, alright?” you said keeping your focus on the plates.

“You’re obviously still upset, can we talk about this?” he was pleading with you.

“I told you I have nothing to say, I’m over it, can you please just leave me alone.”

“Can you at least look at me?” he was obviously annoyed. 

You turned off the water, and turned to look at him, drying your hands on your pants. 

“Talk to me y/n” he breathed.

Even though he was asking so softly, the secrets you’ve locked away only shyed away.

“I told you I have nothing to say.” 

“If this is going to work you’re going to have to talk to me Y/N”.

You looked down at your feet, was this is.

“Y/N CAN YOU LOOK AT ME!” he started raising his voice.

“Don’t yell at me!” you said, your voice cracking emotionally. 

Shiro ran his hand through his hair sighing deeply. 

“I’m trying to talk to you, but you won’t... this is.... so childish, it’s late I’m going to sleep.” He stalked off leaving you alone in the kitchen.

Exhausted and distraught you made your way to your bedroom. Today was the first time you’ve had a fight with him, and you just shrank back. All your insecurities were sinking in.

Could things ever work between you too? you were too broken for him, he deserved someone better. 

You changed into your pajamas and crawled into your bed before letting hot tears roll down your cheek, and letting out soft cries.

You weren’t going to get much sleep, all you could think about were the sour relationships of your past. The boyfriends who treated you like shit.

 You’ve built so many walls, as soon as you thought you were in the clear the illusion would fade. You’ve been cheated on, manipulated, lead on, used, and abused. 

There was a knock at your door. You looked at your clock it was second varga of the quintent. You sniffled, drying your face on your shirt before crawling out from the covers, to the door of your room.

You opened it slowly, looking up to find a tired Shiro in his pajamas. “Y/N can I come in?” he asked rubbing his cheek.

You pulled open the door, then closed it behind him.

He sat down on your bed with a humph.

“I can’t sleep knowing your mad at me... I’m sorry I yelled at you.”

You wrapped your arms around yourself nervously, “I’m sorry too... it’s just....” you started, but you didn’t know how to explain your feelings.

“What is it?” Shiro inquired, he was eager to know what was going on. 

“I don’t know how to tell you, I’m bad at this... I’m not used to this...” you said gesturing towards him.

“What’s this?” he asked confused, his voice had sleep on it, it was late and he was tired. You felt terrible for having him up this late.

“You, a relationship... like this, It’s just everyone I’ve been with has been terrible to me. I don’t know how to do this, when we fought before I was so scared...”

He was listening to you closely, trying to understand.

“I know I sound ridiculous, every guy I’ve ever been with has hurt me. I can’t disassociate, I feel bound towards destruction. I’m scared of being hurt again...”

You were wound up, your body language frantic and stressed. “Shiro I’m a mess, I’m scared, I’m in love with you... and I don’t want things to turn bad, but they always do!”

“I love you too...”

“What... did you?”

“I love you too, Y/N”

“Come here....” he whispered.

You walked over to him, he took your hands in his.

“I promise I won’t hurt you, I love you... I’m sorry you’ve been hurt before, but I’ll never hurt you. I’m so in love with you, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to you.”

He pulled you into his lap and you buried your face in his shoulder.

“Your too good to me”

“No everyone deserves to be loved and cherished, you make me happy, and I want to make you happy beautiful.” 

“I love you too Shiro, I’m sorry I have a lot of walls.”

“It’s okay lovely, we have all the time in the world.”

“Can I stay with you tonight?” he asked kissing your forehead sweetly.

You nodded getting up from his lap, and back under the covers. 

You tangled your leg with his, and put your head on his chest.

His hand rested on your head, he petted you lazily, holding you close with his other hand. 

“I love you Shiro...”

“I love you too Y/N”