#paithoughts

I should try and stop this mindset of thinking cus l at the end of the day my spam is to show my memories n stuff and if I’m cringe oh well 😓

(not online diary related)

For the past couple of years I’ve experienced super intense joint pain and I didn’t think anything of it in the beginning, months passed and I began to slightly worry. I searched up my symptoms (which I should’ve know was a red flag) and it began linking “bone cancer” I know that isn’t the case so I just continued to ignored it. A year after I told my mother and she convinced me to go to the doctors, the doctor said that it was because of vitamin D deficiency, I started taking fish oil supplements but it still didn’t help me. I remembered a while ago when I started my asthma medication ( I use one Albuterol inhaler, one Qvar inhaler and I take one Montelukast 10mg table each day) I read that the montelukast tablets affect something bone related and just in case I searched it up and it states that.

“Yes, joint pain is a possible side effect of montelukast, but it's not clear how often it occurs or if it's actually caused by the drug. Joint pain has been reported after the drug was released, but it wasn't reported in studies of people taking montelukast.”

So like I don’t know whether to stop taking my medication or not…my pains have started to intensify and it leads to intense nausea.

Idk what to do :(

She deserves a big fucking apology and I hope she wins it’ll be a good slap in all those stupid ass transphobes faces

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-pai 🐠

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