or I was turned into a monster as all my badness just took over and the darkness swallowed me and it felt like dipping under the surface without any means of getting back. At that point there is literally only trust because you could do anything at all. But instead of hearing what I expect, you guys have stayed and told me things like 'I will never give up on you.'

Or we fight and disagree on something HUGE and somehow you're still willing to be friends? At this point, all I really expect is people to go and new people to come and for me to enjoy them til they stop enjoying me too and then more people will come. Call me Calypso, I guess.Your beliefs are so strong. And unreasonable. Sometimes it must hurt you because I'm so unsympathetic and so prideful and a brat: I know I'm a handful. But you still tell me forever?