₊꩜﹒Your person in mind's shadow self | pick a pile ⋆˖⁺‧₊☽
Hi! I have 5$ readings rn & 1.50$ per yes or no questions, if you would like to leave a tip, it would be greatly appreciated! <3 i used teal swans " the blind spot " deck for this reading. I also did a shadow self pac for yourself if you are interested. The wording in this reading is not my own as i used the book it came with, it can be pretty deep as it is a shadow based deck. I hope these messages resonate + help you see your person's shadow self a bit better & makes sense on their thoughts, actions towards you + your connection + themselves. Bless! 🧸 made august 16th 2025
You do not have real clarity about why you are upset. You may even be denying that you are upset when you are most definitely are. Improvement in the situation will happen once you can admit to the fact that you are upset and clearly understand why. Upset is your internal guidance system telling you that in this moment and aspect of your life is out of alignment with what you desire if your emotions were a compass, and upset is your compass alerting you that you have moved off a due north course. When you feel upset, it is critical to know that you cannot control this emotional upset once it has occurred, you can only respond to it. It is how you respond to an upset that makes the difference between going further off your course or back onto it. When we do not use an upset to alert us to awaken or to become fully aware, we tend to immediately unconsciously react to the situation at hand. For example, we slammed doors or smoke a cigarette or yell at people or take an action that we feel gives us power over someone else. This reaction is a resistance to what is happening, and so it only serves to make matters worse. If you rearrange the order of the conjunct words that make up the word upset, you will arrive at an interesting truth and upset is in fact, a set up. It is a set up on behalf of the universe at large to make you completely aware of something you are currently unaware of. You are being set up to awaken. You are being set up to integrate what is un- integrated or heal. what is unhealed within you. because it is a set up, acknowledge that this is not the universe working against you; this is the universe offering you an opportunity. Because the universe is alerting you to an opportunity to awaken, you can treat and upset like an alarm going off, a red flag popping up or a meditation bell. Let the discomfort of the upset snap you awake and bring all of your focus to the present moment so that all of your conscious attention can be placed on the situation at hand. approach the upset with an attitude that you are being called to become aware of something in that moment. You must address each upset with the awareness that the upset is valid. It isn't a matter of whether it is right or wrong to feel that way. So let yourself feel your feelings completely without suppressing them or trying to force them to go away. Look at the recipe of an upset to isolate the actual ingredient that is causing the issue. There are three ingredients that create the recipe of upset : a: an intention or desire that is opposed or prevented.
b: an exception that has been expectation that has been unfulfilled. c: an unsuccessful communication.Each upset is comprised of one or all of these ingredients. And all of these ingredients revolve around the fact that we think something should be a certain way and it isn't. An example of an intention that is opposed or prevented is I intend to get to work by 8 o'clock, but the traffic jam opposed that desire and prevented me from getting to work on time opposed or prevented intentions and desires, cause us to feel emotions like hatred, rage, anger, or, if you are feeling, especially powerless, feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and despair. An example of an expectation that is unfulfilled is I expect that my husband keeps me emotionally safe, but he told me something negative that someone else said about me and it caused me to feel bad. Keep in mind that expectations can be highly unconscious and can give arise to feelings of disappointment, sorrow, and grief. An example of an unsuccessful communication is I wanted to explain myself to my best friend, but all she did was hang up the phone when I called. Unsuccessful communication is a two-way street. It can be about us communicating to them or them communicating to us. Perhaps we failed to be able to communicate with the other person because of the way you worded something, or maybe they were simply not open to communication. Perhaps you withheld some authentic truth from them, or they withheld some authentic truth from you. When we express unsuccessful communication, we may feel abused, like we failed, stuck, trapped, rejected, and violated. When we feel upset, we need to make ourselves aware of what intention or desire is being opposed, what expectation is going unfulfilled and/or what needs to be communicated that is not being successfully communicated. We need to find a way to communicate directly with ourselves and with the people we are in conflict with about these deep fruits of the upset so we are no longer dealing with the surface of things. in other words, if my husband leaves his socks on the floor, my anger is not about the socks being on the floor. My anger could be about the fact that I expect him to respect me instead of take me for granted, and when he leaves his socks on the floor, so I can pick them up, he's failing to meet my expectation. This card shows up in my life when a message : and upset is always a call to awaken. It is always a set up on behalf of the universe to call you to make a change to your thoughts, communication, actions and situation.
Pile 2 ♡ running away from emotion
 You are currently running away from emotion. What you do not see is that an important personal truth is underneath the emotion you were trying to run away from. Chances are that, as a child, you were not allowed to have certain emotions or to see them as valid. They weren't tolerated or treated as if they exist. This means that every time you feel a negative emotion, you are going to respond to it the way you've been conditioned to respond to it. You are going to deny, reject and disown it. You are going to try to deny it away and shut it up because you believe it shouldn't exist. You are also going to do the same thing to other people's emotions because when other people feel certain emotions it causes you to feel emotions. If we reject our own emotions, this means we do not want anyone else to feel what we refuse to feel. And we don't want their emotions to make us feel Away we don't want to. You need to get into the practice of doing the exact opposite. Turn towards your emotions instead of away from them. No one overacts, including you. There has never been a person who has ever overreacted. People react exactly in accordance with the reality that they are bone perceive. And in our perspective and realities are not the same. For example, there is a perception that a person who is dramatic, or who is a drama queen is either overreacting, or is acting for the sake of attention, Much like a performer on stage. If this is the case, and they are overreacting for the sake of attention, they are in a state of extreme conflict because deep down, they feel desperate for attention, unseen, unheard, and unloved. Deep down, they distrust and dislike themselves and have no inner peace, and so they are screaming for other people to save them from themselves. So the question must be asked : are they really overreacting if they are playing out their desperation to be saved from themselves and to be seen and heard? When it applies to the human emotional experience, there is no such thing as drama. Your emotions are the perfect reflection of a perspective that you hold, regardless of whether or not that perspective is a reflection of truth. There is always a very real reason why you feel those emotions. Emotion functions like a compass pointing through life. If your compass were not messed with, you would not fall out of touch with your own Northstar, your guiding light. You would not see your emotions as wrong, therefore you would see every emotion as valid and happening for an important reason. You would listen carefully to the person truth being conveyed in every emotion and you were therefore follow what feels good with awareness the same way you would follow a compass do north you would know that if you felt bad, it means that you were heading in the wrong direction for you personally with your thoughts and words and actions. You cannot run away from emotion without ignoring your compass. If you have drawn this card, learn to feel your emotion. Choose with your free will to be present with the emotion you feel. Every emotion is valid. Sit with each emotion and listen to the personal truth. It is trying to convey to you. What makes an emotion unbearable is resisting it. If you do that, you intensify the emotion beyond what you can tolerate. You need to acknowledge and learn to express the truth underneath these emotions or else you will continue to feel toxic.
Do you want the truth of yourself and potentially the truth of the situation at hand to exist in your own Blindspot and or other people's blind spots permanently. You do not want the truth to be seen by you or them. You can consider this card to be the master of blind spots because even if you are consulting this check the truth is you want to maintain blind spots in yourself and or others. You may say what you want to see yourself and you want to be seen by others, but the part is that is currently in control of your thoughts, words and actions does not want either. Your motive for using this tech is to not see the truth in this situation and not see the truth of yourself. You are so used to being able to get yourself and other people to focus on whatever you want yourself or them to focus on, instead of whatever you don't want yourself for them to see and focus on, That you were hoping this tech would play right into that strategy. Your hope was that you would draw a card that would act as a diversion for what you don't want to focus on about yourself; or that you would draw a card that would get people to focus on their own blind spots instead of yours. You feel it is in your best interest to have others focussing on their shortcomings, Blindspot, ignorance, and problems instead of on yours. If you have drawn this card link back to the character mystique from the X-Men series.
Think about both the power and level of safety this character holds. This is what you actually want. To you, when something is clearly seen, it no longer has control as you can no longer tell yourself that an unsavoury truth may not be the truth the potential can always stay open, but the truth is something much more comfortable for your ego. You enjoy not having to be coming down by tree. So you choose confusion. You may be creating confusion and other people so you can reflect the focus back onto them and make them help themselves and their own sanity. you are probably gaslighting people as well. If you have draw this card, you hate the solid nature of truth. You think that when other people know the truth, it will give them the upper hand. As it applies to yourself, you hate when all of you knows the truth about yourself because you feel that part of you the internal moderator which is self shaming and self abuse and keeps you on a short lease and demands difficult change, will now have the truth in use to convict you and force you under control. One other people know the truth and when you know the truth about yourself, it feels like a death sentence to you. If you have drawn this card, you may enjoy being able to turn into whatever you want whenever it suits you, and to convince others, and potentially even yourself, that you were actually that thing. You may be a skilled social actor, the ultimate chameleon. Your attitude may be that you don't care how you get something as long as you get it. You may want to get away with things and never be found out. You are so good at stuff and yourself into your own blind spot and living your life inside other peoples blind spots that you may have even fooled yourself. You may be letting go of your sense of self and the truth of self in a way that has nothing to do with the practice of transcending beyond Self hood but rather letting go of your identity or the truth of yourself/the situation. In order to manipulate someone or maybe even yourself. If you have drawn this card, what you don't see is that when people ask you a question or when you ask yourself a question, you are not looking to answer with the truth. you are looking to answer in whatever way provides you the greatest personal benefits at that time. Chances are you are so good at doing this, if you do not answer, truthfully, it is only after you have decided that doing so gives you the greatest personal benefit at that time, such as answering truthfully, at this time will make them see me as a good and trustworthy person , which is what I want right now.
You are either playing a game of pure strategy in this situation, or your life is a game of strategy. You alter yourself and your strategy the minute that the external situation changes. There is nothing solid about you. You have drawn this card because in order to create a life you want, you need to accept that strategy is something that people with a solid self-concept may employ. But it is not a life to have a self that is inherently pure strategy. Whether you see it or not, if you are very self is mutating due to strategy, you never have a solid grass on your conscience. This means you will look back at your life having hurt yourself and a lot of people along with me. You got what you wanted, the question is : at what cost? If you have drawn this card, you have got to see the value of truth and the value of solidity and the value of a defined self. What don't you want to see about yourself? What don't you want others to see about you? Why are you so terrified of the truth? What truth are you so terrified of? What are you the most afraid of being true about? What are you the most afraid of others see the truth about you?
