#pac collab

PILE 1

I clearly see that you are not nurturing yourself, your feminine side especially. You do not let things flow to yourself and out, you could somehow be disrespecting your own emotional and nurturing side because of it. You refuse to see things as they are and could possibly delude yourself that you are doing a good job of handling your emotions well, when in fact you are operating from a place of unevolved masculine values(all people have both energies). Intuition blocked and so is the creativity, the divine energy that moves within all those who create. You might possibly even withdraw without proper confrontation of situations, stuffing it all back down. Withdrawal symptoms. It could come out as being emotionally manipulative. You have become a shell of superficiality and inside-there's nothing for your soul to sustain. You are holding on, making it seem it's all good outside but inside.... Your soul is screaming for freedom, to be wild and free.

Embody- THE PHEONIX, THE WOLF.

These cards call you out to embrace the changing and unstable times. But not turn into something you are not, Overcome them to create your own unique identity, the one that will make you the fantastic YOU, the you that just pulses with feminine nurturing energy. Focus of being you, not fitting in the aesthetics of this fake world of social media. If you are someone who focuses on being socially accepted and in keeping up appearances, don't.

The real you shines so much better and they are a force to be reckoned with, they cannot ever be ignored. They respect the differences they bring to the world and flaunt it with power and beauty. Don't try to fit in, instead go where you are drawn to naturally. Let your feminine side breath!!!! You should try self-pampering body massages, some sun maybe that vitamin D(*wink wink*) and saunas.

PILE 2

(Warning- Sensitive topics below)

I see you have this tunnel vision when it comes to your emotions and love, that you are not seeing the other important details. You could have been abused at some point because of you being this understanding, emotionally nurturing, always showing up for other people energy.

You could love to love. Love to fall in love. You could be having this tendency to get obsessed about love, getting swept up in the feeling of love or having this false definition of it too.

I see you are failing to see the dark side of the Human Psyche. And you are rejecting it from yourself too, accept your shadow and let it serve you, not the other way around. Your shadow part always shows where you have been disrespected.

Darling, it's time you stop this and start investing in yourself. No love comes before self-love and it will never ever be as satisfying as self-love, I promise. Give the love to yourself, it's gonna be so worth it. Hold yourself like you'd hold an abandoned puppy or kitten- with love and care. That’s what I'm seeing now. Nurture yourself. Hold your emotions as the precious thing they are, don't drown in them. Don't let it prevent you from seeing the bigger perspective, the analytical side of it. And I say this with love, for God's sake don't give out your love to everyone or anyone. Stop giving too much out to people before yourself. At the same time, don't let the shadows engulf you.

You could also indulge in your emotions more than necessary when it's not the right time to indulge in it, you could think that pain is all you are made for- kind of like a spiralling down. It could make you wallow in them over and over. Instead of letting your pain swallow you, use it to see what exactly is needing attention. We don't give enough attention on the problem to prevent it from happening again sometimes. So no, don't get all closed up because of pain now.

I understand that we all crave love and acceptance but you are not loving yourself, you are disrespecting yourself by giving away yourself to people who don't see your value, who don't see what you offer.

You could also abandon love completely and hyperfixate on your freedom at times- hyper independence. You could focus too much into your work in attempts to abandon your emotions, to not see the shadow aspects of a situation and to even protect yourself against these harsh truth of reality too. Choose connections that are nurturing vice-versa and not only by one side. Choose yourself first. And always. Be kind to people just not overly giving than necessary.

Most importantly don't give up on love and don't give up on your own softness, your ability to enjoy life. Make sure you are not drowning in emotions cause of your romanticization of things. Don't turn your back to love, don't turn your back from facing the shadow.

Embody- THE PEACOCK.

You are beautiful, elegant and royal. Assert yourself, no matter what others say even if it seems too much for them to handle you. Like the peacock, show up in your celestial glory. Show up with your colourful feathers. If they get intimated it's not your problem. The peacock dances right before it rains, similarly let the nature guide you and let yourself be attuned to the nature. People could try to belittle you by pointing out your shortcomings but you are much more than the things that happened before. And even the shortcomings they notice in you is actually there to protect you from people like them. They are not your people.

I actually read something after I fully finished interpreting the readings but i had to add this in, "Even though the peacock feathers look beautiful to the perceivers, for the peacock it's just hair". You could very well be not noticing your own magic.

Enjoy and rejoice the encounters the universe is bringing you now, no matter brief or prolonged. You could also move around, dance and do rain gazing to channel this IT GIRL moment/energy more. Water is very healing for you.

PILE 3

(Warning- Sensitive topics below)

You could be someone who gives out responsibilities to others and in worst cases, you assign your own responsibilities to other people. Some people here could also abandon their responsibilities and focus only on things that give you happiness. While it is a good habit, you could do that at expense of others. Or you simply could be avoiding your responsibilities and putting in work.

You wish to indulge in things that bring you happiness and comfort only. You want to be this all knowing, knowledged authority figure. On the outside it seems like you are doing this for the best, but it's your ego wanting attention and praise. You might also have a habit of making yourself seem 'wishing the best to all' to justify things you have done for your own benefit. You could use your resources to fulfill your wishes and addictions. Honestly, you seem to be addicted to things that are not serving for your highest in long run.

You could also have this false belief that everything will turn out to your favour even if situations seems to demand your attention to change for the better. Yeah you seem to take advantage of people's compassion and empathy to take advantage of them to get what you want. Simple as that. Tone down your ego and hold yourself responsible.

Anyhow you are letting superficial pleasures have a vice over you. You are falling back into toxic patterns. Excess indulgence in guilty pleasures that is turning you into getting addicted to them. You could be again thinking everything's gonna be fine and you are better than other people but, it seems they are empty assurances that are simply not true.

Embody- TARANTULA.

You are called to give more attention to what you consume, what you think and make conscious decisions on everything in your life. And don't try to play with people's feelings. So you really think the things you did were for the best? Or were those a result of your own needs. See if you can get your needs though alternate methods that don't involve the shady business. Don't try to make things seem more dramatic than they are too. Re-think your purpose and aim in life. Your toxic coping mechanisms and habits will come to bite you back soon if you don't start taking steps to change them.

PILE 4, PILE 5, PILE 6

Read Pile 4, 5 & 6 in @leafsvflowers's account ⇒ Here.