#p.a.s

I’ve had deep feelings for people before. I’d go so far as to say I’ve been in love. But the feelings I have for you are so different. They’re not like any other feeling I’ve had before. They’re not blinding or fiery, they’re precious and pure. I fall for you more and more everyday and it’s because of the small things. It didn’t take silly photo booth pictures or midnight phonecalls for me to fall for you. It didn’t take pet names or unexpected kisses in an abandoned hallway for me to fall for you. I didn’t even have to touch you. All it took was you being yourself. All it took was seeing the way your eyes light up when you smile and the way you see life more deeply than others. I’ve never felt so good about having feelings for a person in my life because for once I know I’m going about it the right way.

He’s not you, but he makes me smile. He’s not you, but he’s fun and interesting. He’s not you, but he’s still attractive. He’s not you, but maybe that’s a good thing. He’s a whole new adventure to embark on and a new mystery to unravel. I’m ready to find out what makes him unique and why he’s in my life instead of constantly longing for you because you’re not here.