i could only see

you from afar

not near the door

but through ajar

i really wished 

we could've talked more

but sometime i ask

why'd i want that for

sometimes i think

sometimes i do

i look for the link

that links me to you

but after a while

i get this feel

maybe its not meant to be 

that shall not repeat

that shall not happen 

that must never happen

that was very upsetting

that was funny

that was really strange

that wasn't something i thought you'd do 

that must never happen ever

that made me feel sad

that made me think 

that made me cry

i've been having loadz of tests

homework

pre labs

studying

relaxing time ((not really))

AND I HAVE GASTRIC FLU !!!!

i always get this when i'm stressed about stuff , it's so painful i dont even know what to do 

i wouldn't want to jeopardize and skip any lessons sigh so sad 

i took meds tho from my previous gastric attack

not working

help

hel

he

h

-gone-

its popping here there everywhere up down left right it just keeps coming !!!!! especially the back of my neck cos my hair's long , this is so upsetting really

short day at school just now , ended at twelve plus plus , went to study and then roamed around tampines mall area with Elysha , and well went to DAISO yay ehhe that place is haven really everyone i support you going there !!!

There's a HAP quiz next friday I am certainly not pumped but i will aim for perfection !

I have homework to do but it's my friday night man cut me some slack 

Right now i flipped my hair to the right side and let the fan blow towards my back because i'm sweating but now i can barely see what I'm typing on the screen because my hair fell forward and I'm just a typing girl from the ring ((you know that scary movie ))

And  now i'm typing with one hand holding my hair and this thing is freaking slow because i'm making so many mistakes I just took three minutes to type and make sure there's no errors in this paragraph

dedication to my word=k

Really envy my lecturers who have a PHD at a young age 

Really wanna be like them

I can't wait

Hope it happens somehow

I wanna succeed in life

Big goals scare me but this is life right

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 SHALL WATCH RUNNINGMAN NOW YEAY

LOVE YOU EVERYONE !!! \( * o *)/

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER @otakudiaries and instagram @nimsayx

ps i'm typing this while flipping my hair left , then right , then front , and then holding my hair again , and then putting it at the back to see my errors and then just continued flipping life is so miserable 

No i refuse to cut my hair wanna be rapunzel ehhehehe

no i was just joking 

yes , that is very very true , to be honest i am kind of gullible sometimes (( i know my limits and yes i've been taught not to follow strangers who give candy you don't have to worry)) some might even call me naive ((SOMETIMES)) . Is it because i'm too nice or kind ? Maybe i just see things positively , i always lament about sad stuff but most of the time , i really think that something good might happen in the future 

OKAY I THINK I SIDETRACKED SOMEWHERE BUT HEY EVERYTHING DEVIATES SOMEHOW

ok well anyway i spent half of the day sleeping ((who wouldn't please tell me))((public holiday guys what do you expect)) AND after that i revised Organic Chem 1 (the orbital stuff is wicked) ((why is a 17 year old studying this)) ((MINISTRY OF EDUCATION WHY ?!?1?)) But i'm really enjoying it ((i look forward for the day i get rid of this really thinking positive here)) and we have more and more brackets as i post more daily posts hehe

was supposed to go for cousin's baby shower but i'm still tired from my other cousin's wedding during the weekends+school is 9-6 almost everyday , speaking of which i end at 8 tomorrow yup start school at nine ((wake up at six sigh)) and end school at 8 pm yup i'll reach home at around ten +heavy bag +no break since 11 = zombie equation complete .

TODAY'S FIRST MAY AND MOTHER'S DAY IS COMING GO HOME AND TELL YOUR MOM YOU LOVE HER OR EVEN RIGHT NOW TELL HER YOU LOVE HER YOU DON'T NEED TO EXPRESS YOUR LOVE ONLY ON ONE SPECIFIC DAY THAT SOCIETY HAS VOTED FOR DEDICATION TOWARDS MOTHERS ! EVERYDAY IS MOTHER'S DAY so what are you waiting for ? she's not gonna be here forever you know , spread the love 

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VIRTUAL HUG TIME \ ( * v * ) / LOVE YOU GUYS ! SPREAD THE LAVVVV

follow me on twitter @otakudiaries and instagram @nimsayx ! 

so we didn't win

so that doesn't prove anything

so that shows we have brains

so it shows we use brains rather than brawn

so people cried

so it was a sad moment

so next thing i wanna talk about is jam and hop

so it was amazing

so it was magical

so it was something extraordinary

so what if we were painted like red indians

so what if they poured coloured powder over my head and skin that is hard to come off

so what if my arms are still partially hulk since applied since is ggreen so green powder

so what if life isn't great scrubbing this shit off

WE HAD FUCKING FUN BICHACHOS

sooooooooooo this is when i tell you that everyone deserves to be loved , and here's a hug from me to you and

sooooooooo follow me on twitter @otakudiaries and instagram @nimsayx

guess what i'll be awake for about 24 hours tomorrow

guess what my body's aching i don;t know how i'm gonna survive tomorrow

guess what eczema is breaking out on my arms , hands and neck 

guess what i am pissed off because mangarock keeps updating more yaoi than shoujo((too much is poisonous please don't))

guess what i think i should pipe the fuck down

guess what this is a fun fact i just typed everything above starting with guess what

guess what i'm going to continue typing this way all through out

guess what i am a queen of typos

guess what everyone in this house is an emotionla wreck

guess what i love troy and abed

guess what i think i'm becoming like troy and sheldon 

guess what i am tired of speaking like a robot

guess what here's the part where i put l o l 

guess what lol 

WELL I LOVE YOU GUYS HERE'S A HUG SO DON'T GIVE UP THINGS'LL BE FINE OKAY WUV YA \( * v * )/

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