#ow......

your beloved dies.  you may not lose yourself, but you lose the one you love most. is that not worse? and which would hurt you more: to be there when it happens, or to have to hear the news from someone else that you will never see your beloved again? you grieve and mourn, but nothing will change the fact that they were taken from you. no one will ever replace them. for a long time, there is no comfort (perhaps there never is). you are separated, unable to reach them, but still left in the wake of their life, the space they once occupied, trying to find meaning.