so as some of you know i have been majorly into 3D printing recently and i just wanted to show off my most recent print. it's one of the most complex builds i've done. a lot of work went into fine tuning it to get it to look as smooth as it does and how clear the light up parts are. this was many hours of testing and research and i'm pretty damn pleased with the results. i know it won't mean much to most of you... so basically here's me hanging my finger paints up on the fridge haha.

i'd usually show it off to my brother because he would understand....but this is a gift for him so i have to wait at least 3 more weeks until i can do that. son of a bitch haha.

anyway if you're not familiar this is an identity disc from tron legacy. no, they aren't usually synced up to music but ya boy had to be extra. listen if i can sync it to daft punk why NOT? haha

good god. and that's enough tumblr for me.

i'm going to have to say that i think i'm officially just on hiatus. don't know for how long but i'm just kind of done here. i'm seeing the most immature high school style bullshit surrounding people who are in their 30s.

folks, if you're getting "anon hate" just don't engage. simple as that. don't post it. don't talk about it. don't mention it. just delete that shit and move on with your life. seriously, don't feed the trolls. all these people are looking for is attention and if you post about it, you're giving it to them.

this is all starting to feel very 2014 tumblr again and it just grosses me out. i've been struggling with these fandom spaces for a bit anyway and seeing this shit just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

outofpie;

well because i get questions like this for starters...

look, i'm not "against" destiel. it's a fucking ship. i don't really care either way if you ship it or not. i don't care what you ship. this is a ship coming from the show that brought you wincest. we're used to not the best takes here. if you like the idea of dean and cas together, good for you. have a cookie.

what i don't like is this apparent narrative that i'm not allowed to DISLIKE destiel as a ship. please tell me exactly what you're trying to gain from sending these messages in. do you think i'm suddenly going to change my mind and have dean jump every cas he sees?

it's WILD to me that it's so controversial to not ship characters who i see as having a brotherly bond. to me, dean just sees cas as another little brother. i don't care that cas is a zillion years old. dean basically has to teach him all things human and it's very reminiscent of his bond with sam. dean basically had to "raise" another being when it came to cas.

i mean really, would you be physically or romantically attracted to a guy who didn't get your jokes, didn't understand what it meant to be a human, didn't understand human emotions (for the most part), didn't understand the references you made, betrayed you in several ways, threatened to throw you back into hell, basically told you that you were a POS for asking your brother's soul to be put back, broke the wall in your brother's mind as a distraction, tried to become a god with creepy depictions of him pulling you from hell in stained glass included, released the leviathans on the earth which ended up getting your father figure killed, ditched you in purgatory for a YEAR, freed lucifer who your brother DIED to put in the cage and so on?

none of this really leads me to seeing romance in the cards. dean is incredibly forgiving and he's made a lot of his own fuck ups too but there's no way a man who already has massive trust issues is going to be comfortable in a relationship with all of that hanging over it. cas is his family and will always be his family but anything more than brotherly love? it just ain't happening.

cas is incredibly important to dean as his BEST FRIEND and i also think that it's kind of bullshit to strip that away from him. look, dean doesn't have any issues in the romance department okay? if he really wanted to be with someone i think he would be but he also knows he has a lot of issues and doesn't want to put that on anyone. that being said, what dean DOES have issues with is friendships. take a look at season one. who are dean's friends? who does he have in his life besides his family? NO ONE. the fact that dean was able to have a best friend for as long as he did was incredibly meaningful and an important part of his character development. taking that away and turning cas into just another romantic figure is stripping that away. brotherly love/friendship love is JUST as important as romantic love and dean deserved that too. and so did cas.

destiel shippers can see whatever they wanna see in weird looks or a 'lack of personal space' or whatever other mental gymnastics you use to make that ship work but i'm never going to see it. it's never going to be "confirmed"; it's never going to be canon. full stop. you can buy into the retroactive queerbaiting on a show that ended 5 years ago if you want but to me it doesn't matter what they say on some podcast or whatever they say at cons, or if some song is partly inspired by dean and cas. what matters is that it's not canon and I DON'T SHIP IT. i've been very open about NOT shipping it for a long time. there's even a section in my carrd about it because guess what? this is NOT the first time i've had this sort of bullshit happen.

if you have a problem with me not liking a ship...how about you just....don't follow me?

oh i'm gonna get realllll annoyed about the reblog and like button being moved.

i see everyone freaking out about the dash changing.

....didn't that update happen months ago?

despite appearances i am in fact alive. i've just been throwing myself into this oneshot i've been writing and or feeling miserable.

also 3D printing lbr

but i'm around. deano is around. gonna bug some of you because you deserve it. ;)

outofpie;

oh are we really doing this in our year of the lord 2025? am i really getting shit about not liking destiel? it's almost nostalgic in a sad sort of way. it's been a long time since i got an anon who was clearly lost.

alright, you wanna do this? okay. i'm game.

let's just take a look at EXACTLY what jensen said about watching over me.

"A lot of songs that Steve and I have written, are.. uh, have double meanings. Uhm, they are analogies or they are, you know.. there's a way to kinda read two meanings into them, uhm.. Yes, the "Watching over me" was definitely, uh.. not all of it, but there were many lyrics in there that were inspired.. uhm by that.. that story, yes."

and just so we're all on the same page here's a link to a post that contains video, audio and text transcripts of the above and the question that inspired that answer.

first of all, he was sure to explain that the song was written as an analogy. it has double meaning. so like many songs, the lyrics don't necessarily outright state the true intention of the song. secondly, he was sure to clarify that NOT ALL OF IT was inspired by that story. so basically this, to me, is just another classic case of destiel shippers cherry picking exactly what they want out of that answer. none of you ever bothered to confirm WHICH parts are inspired by that story, but i'm used to that shit by now haha.

"but oh luke, surely you're biased against destiel," you say. "jensen is admitting dean had feelings for cas."

okay so you just wanna ignore ALL the other things jensen has outright said in regards destiel and to how dean feels about cas? just because he said that one song was vaguely inspired by that story? let me give you some examples of how jensen has felt about destiel over the years.

i'm assuming this all stems from the video i posted but i'll link that here again. jensen said that dean considers cas a "family member" and a "brother in arms" and "someone dean truely loved much like sam." "essentially he lost his brother in that moment." and that's how he played dean's perspective in regards to the 'i love you' scene.

here's a video and if you skip in to about 9:40 jensen talks about how in season 9 he was GLAD that cas and dean barely had any scenes together. "there wasn't a lot of dean and cas storyline in season nine. personally i kinda enjoyed that. i think the whole dean and cas thing has kinda gotten a little out of proportion. [crowd cheers] some of you know what i mean. [...] i don't think there's anything secret to their relationship even though a lot of people wish there was."

how about something more straight forward? here's a video where jensen literally says "destiel doesn't exist." i feel like that's pretty clear, right?

here's a post where jensen is so done entertaining the idea of destiel he won't even let someone ask a question about dean being bi.

those examples took NO time to find by the way, anon. i'm sure i could find more examples but i'd rather do something more fun or productive with my time.

here's the deal. i DON'T and WON'T ever ship destiel. i honestly don't even really give a shit about what jensen says but i'm not gonna let you try and turn one statement into a GOTCHA when there's been so many examples of him saying otherwise.

to me, cas is always going to be dean's friend at MOST. at its core supernatural is a story about two brothers and that's the love story there. the familial love story of sam and dean. as sad as it for dean, he died young and didn't get the love he deserved. and i don't think cas could have ever been that for him either way. but regardless, the show is about sam and dean. it starts with them and it ends with them. period.

you're free to ship whatever the hell you want and i'm gonna ship whatever the hell i want but lets be clear here. nothing said now is canon. destiel will never be canon. the show ended FIVE FUCKING YEARS AGO so if you're buying into any of this shit now i feel sorry for you anyway.

don't you love it when you're working on a draft and suddenly your cat decides now is the time to hold them, so they randomly jump on you, and you end up posting it before you're done?

blame thorin @theambergxmbler hahah i'll let you know when i actually post it. the furry menace in question: