#outoffiction

right, so this is something i don't like to talk about, but i have to put this blog on hiatus. i have bpd and it's a daily struggle for me to maintain it. lately a lot has happened and it's been affecting me beyond grief. it's one the most mentally and physically draining disorders which i beg to be set free from. it's a shitty feeling and you feel shitty all day and you're paranoid about everything and every problem is always increased tenfold. i don't like to believe i am mentally unstable, but i'd be a damn fool. i quit seeing my psychologist because his effort to help me meant being realistic without actually helping me to get a backbone and to overcome this. thanks to him now i'm scarred see a new psychologist. i've quit my job and solitude is my ideal; but also my misery. i can't bring myself to come online when my emotions are volatile. i haven't decided if this blog is on permanent hiatus or semi. all i know it that i need to find a way to improve myself or otherwise i'm going to retreat back to the old me. anyway, have a fun year ahead of you, guys'. draco says... well draco's being rude and strutted off elsewhere. diva.