#ouoftime

Here's hoping tomorrow'll be somewhat better than today's been. It's my parent's anniversary, so hoping they'll just concentrate on that rather than yelling at me about things.

STEVE LITERALLY HAS SO MANY FEELINGS

and he gives me so many feelings

but it also frickin rocks my world bc I've had that headcanon for ages that Steve's PTSD is the most intense out of any of the Avengers (definitely not more intense than Bucky's tho homeboy's been through hell a few times over) 

Like it's been stated that he's got a photographic memory right and we see proof of that in TFA where he gets a quick glance at that map in the HYDRA facility and can put all of the markers on SSR's map 

and like taking a quick glance while also freaking out trying to save your best friend and possibly going to be attacked at any moment shows that his memory is frickin awesome

that on top of the whole emotions thing like HOLY HECK

his nightmares are fricking intense 

aND LIKE MOST OF THE TIME WE STEVE WRITERS OUT THERE LIKE TO FOCUS ON THE BIG MAJOR EVENTS RIGHT

like when we're thinking about his PTSD we think about the big stand out traumatic events, the crash and fREEZING ALIVE and Bucky and etcetc

but he was also in a fricking war he fought for like a year and a half and maybe it was off the beaten path, he wasn't on the front lines since he was targeting HYDRA, but it was still a battlefield 

and lord KNOWS that's some of the most traumatic stuff there ever was 

and I think he has a lot of nightmares about that, not focusing on one specific event but just these too-vivid assaults on his senses of things he didn't have time to process during the war and tried to forget in the 21st century 

and don't even get me started on how the movies only show glimpses of his struggles because that's exactly how Steve would want it

Steve learns to deal, he figures out ways to cope without anyone ever knowing that he needed to 

(which makes me think of like 'that's the guy my dad never shut up about maybe we should've kept him on ice' and etcetc because Tony had no idea what Steve was dealing with but Steve would rather have Tony think him a hardheaded jerk than know what's really going on) 

UGH LITERALLY I HAVE SO MANY FRICKING FEELINGS ABOUT STEVE ROGERS'S PTSD I COULD WRITE A BOOK 

It’s late and I have a fever so idek

big-headed chibi Dean Winchester and Jan

Khan cornering Jan for calling him "koala-tea"

a Young Mischief thing with lyrics to "F*ckin' Perfect"

a Jim Kirk/Jan thing with quotes that they said to each other in the past

the lettering for TTP

Jan and Wheatley

Prince Dastan and Jan (THE PAIN)

Jan and Kol from a thread I did once with sparemethewaterworks (who probably has a different url now)

a coffeeshop!AU for Janthazar

A Songchester thing for Dean and Time Lady Janet with lyrics to "If Today Was Your Last Day"

An Angels Take Manhattan!AU for Janthazar (double-sided: one side with Janet and Balthazar with their backs turned, another with their gravestone)

Janthazar family with Janet, Balthazar, and their two children Sophia and Joel

A Songchester (Time Lady Janet and Dean) kiss

Chibi Songchester (Time Lady)

Chibi Gabriel

Chibi Balthazar

Anime-ish Balthazar

NOPE.