Jun 13, 2023
post ttc nico thinking bianca might have lived if he was only smarter and stronger and better, and bianca being the only role model he'd had for all the life he'd remembered he absolutely overcompensates becoming a caricature of distrust and seclusion. but he isnt used to it like bianca was and his desire to help (to prove his worth? to prove that he has a right to live when his sister didn't?) manifests in clinging to any opportunity of progress, anything that could earn him graditute or at the very least repentance
#i got thoughts man#the. SIBLINGS#FAMILY .. Dude#in my mind this makes more sense than suddenly becoming resentful#it is hard to believe this insecure little guy has enough self esteem to cry ''woe is me the universe is cruel''#cause then you've acknowledged yourself as a victim#dude is so adverse to accepting help i dont think hed want the pity of the universe#he is so fast to distract from sorrow with problem solving#in this case the problem is biancas dead#and the solving involves self-improvement#he respects his sister and is very dependent on her so i think he'd try to become like her in order to depend on himself#he's willing to die in her place i think yhsi is very much a self perpetuated guilt thing he has going on#bet he thinks he deserves to be blamed#and bet he thinks he has no right to wallow in self pity#i th#ought ing#soup thoughts#nico di angelo#bianca di angelo#homura behavior
