#otterthoughts

Sometimes a random riff reminds me of the Slugterra intro and am then violently yanked back into my childhood for a few minutes.

stress and panic is seeping from every pore of me and I can’t sleep at night unless I exhaust my body to the point the point where my body tingles and I feel even more nauseous because I have been on such an adrenaline high for days. my chest has felt like it is in the fight or flight response and I can’t sit still. I am trying.

I’m not allowed any pets but I literally just want a little creature friend or something to look after all I want to do is satisfy my actual undying craving to take care of something 

mmmm cant find my binder but the top dysphoria is strong today amazing

laying in bed under the covers and falling asleep shirtless is truly once of lifes greatest luxuries 

thinking about being a bit cheeky and fixing myself a bowl of corn flakes ,,, ;^))) will I do it ? no ;^)) but its the thought that counts ;^)));^))

I am slowly reaching my mental limit and my body feels like it is trying to shut itself down I am so tired and my bones ache and I don't know what day it is or what I did on any day of the past week, I am distracted from all of this when I am not alone but I am not getting better, I am just putting on a show for the people I care about