#oshimai

Single n°281 :

It is done.

The airship had settled at cruising level above the patchy cloud cover as they made their way south from Zanarkand. Their course was high and over land, heading towards the mountain range and Gagazet rather than taking a route over the ocean - there was no sense in tempting Sin to follow them. Auron had fled to the observation deck as soon as he was able, and stood overlooking the landscape from the bank of windows.

Yunalesca, gone. I can scarce believe it.

The unsent summoner had been the personal demon of his nightmares for the past ten years. As much as he had pushed for Yuna to reach Zanarkand, he had dreaded every step that took them closer to the ancient city. When he had confronted Yunalesca, full of grief and rage and hate, she had struck him down with seemingly no effort at all. He had seen it, through his tears, her hand gesturing almost lazily before his world exploded in pain. Even with Yuna’s other guardians at his side and Yuna herself standing bright and defiant before them, the fear she had instilled in him remained.

And there was the other fear that had followed him through the Pilgrimage - the fear that Yuna would follow the same path as Braska. This time, all he had had was hope - hope that Yuna would choose life over death, the unknown over the certain, rebellion over acceptance - and hope was hardly easy to come by. She had the expectations of all Spira resting on her shoulders, the weight of her father’s reputation shadowing her steps; the only means he had to discourage her from the Final Summoning was subtle influence - the final choice had to be Yuna’s and Yuna’s alone.

And now what? We have removed the option of the Final Aeon for good, but Sin remains. Jecht may be able to aid us somewhat, but we cannot count on his willpower to last over Yu Yevon’s for long.

song: oshimai (おしまい) band: kizu (キズ) single: oshimai (おしまい) (May 17th, 2017) lyrics: from here translation: VerwelktesGedicht note: definitely one of my surprises of the year... This song really got me!!

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Oshimai - Kizu (English Translation)

Oshimai = The end / That’s it

lalalala-la It’s an endless screaming type of pain. When I open my mouth only grumble and complains come out. Being inferior to my wounds, why am I being alive? It’s that way. What way is it? It’s this way. What way is it?

Lalalalala-la It’s a failed life.

I’ve tried to live “the way” they wanted me to. I was born without a meaning. This is a meaningless life.

Why? Why? Why am I dreaming?

Lalalalala-la

That’s it! Oh My God I’m a failed piece of work. Nobody seems to have a destination or mission.

I’m tired of it. Oh My God Dreams and ideals, they are just there for showing. It’s a waste of time. Ah, being manipulated…

Who are you going to become?

Lalalalala-la

We’re drawing dreams because we’re unsatisfied. We’re falling in love out of loneliness. We’re done with it when we hurt each other because we can’t understand each other.

[Allergy against humans]

Why are they letting me live? Why am I such a helpless doll?

Why? Why? Why? Why?

Lalalalala-la

Do you want to die? Are you tired of it? Is it weakness to not hold the knife that will cut your wrists? Is it the strength to live in the present?

I’m tired of it. Oh My God It’s judgement and disregard. The common sense of majority judges over the badness of the minority.

Ah, don’t weight things as if your brain is that of an Artificial Inteligence!

Lalalalala-la

I notice the pain in this voice that doesn’t stop screaming.

Lalalalala-la

I can’t save you with my hands.

Lalalalala-la

Who? When? Seems like it’s everyone.

Lalalalala-la

This is the life you’ve saved by yourself.

I was searching for the “correct answer” that isn’t supposed to exist. The worth of a life without questions.

That’s it. Oh My God. It’s a world where I just had an emergency landing. Among 1400 Trillion, will this one be happiness or sadness? Which one is it?

I’m tired of it! Oh My God I’m a failure. Well, it’s okay. It’s a wasteful life because I don’t plan on doing anything.

My happy ending won’t come.

Strength to live based on weakness. Living tomorrow, what are you looking for? There is no truth.