#orthdx

my journey on this blog has been a short but sweet one. i started out with zero expectation for a reader base which was what allowed me to write what i did. i wrote what i wanted and enjoyed.

some time after that, i started gaining traction. i started getting surprise feedback every once in awhile. it made me immensely happy that my writing has reached people and been told so in my inbox.

but that has also made me become greedy. i began to set standards for myself - began wanting more likes/notes with every long fic i publish and i get disappointed when it didn’t reach my expectation.

see, that’s the thing about expectations. the higher they are, the harder they disappoint when you don’t reach them.

and it’s not anybody’s fault except maybe tumblr’s algorithm. perhaps, i would have stayed longer if i haven’t noticed that i started getting less likes/traction after i posted pretty girls don’t get hurt. it didn’t bother me much because i was still of the mindset that i shouldn’t expect anything. it worked for awhile until it didn’t anymore. it’s like my presence on tumblr has been slowly wiped off. and my activity has dwindled down to zero as we speak. 

i have a sneaky suspicion that i’ve been shadowbanned - if such concept applies on here as it does on twitter. my latest fic doesn’t show up on searches even though i’ve never added or left out any tag that i’ve been using up until now.

be it as it may, i think this is my wake up call. perhaps, i’ve been stuck in one place for too long. but perhaps i’ll return - maybe on a different blog, maybe on a different platform.

as for my writings, i don’t know if i’ll leave them up or take them down yet! but in due time, if you see them slowly becoming inaccessible, you know the answer. but if they still are after months of my leaving, then i hope those who will come across it will enjoy it! if anyone comes across this post in the future and wish to talk to me about any of my fics, in the event that they’re still up, feel free to leave me an ask - my ask will always be open as long as my blog itself is still around. i may not reply to them but do know that every once in a blue moon, when i feel like i need to look back at my progress, i’ll be checking my blog. and mayhaps, i’ll see your ask.

the series i have going on are officially discontinued. it pains me to do this but i also know that there will always be more series published by other writers that shall sate your reading lust and will be appreciated by all of you the way mine have - i encourage you all to actively leave comments or let writers know how much you enjoy the work they put out. it’ll make their day or even week! trust me - i know.

so thank you, thank you, thank you for all my readers who read my writing, commented and reblogged. you’ve all made me immensely happy! and i wish nothing but the very best for you in whatever you choose to do in life. keep learning and improving as an individual and as a human. i hope we all get to incorporate what bts taught us in life and continue to make remarkable changes.

love, cara