Meant for you
It hurts every single waking moment of day to know you do not get to see your bestfriend everyday anymore and to top it off you feel like he does not care. You spent many nights trying to cure the incurable and yet he does not take advice from you but he continues to hurt himself. No matter how much you tell him you only want the best , you are tucked away into a box like you werent even his friend to begin with. But that is just you being emotional.. Drama here., drama.there. You tell him how much you value the friendship you two have and hope that maybe one day all those days and nights would mean something. But you feel like they never will. Your heart hurts, so much that even knowing he is hurting makes you burst into tears. It isn’t fair. You won’t get to see him graduate, you won’t get to march with him you won’t get to have funny moments afterschool. All you will have is a phone number and long hours awaiting a call. Its not that you are inlove with him, its that you simply care more than anyone else could. You know that everytime you think of him, your stomach grows empty, your heart continues to break. You know.it was.not fair for what happened to him, but you simply cannot do a single thing about it. And no matter how much you want hug him and tell him “Everything Will be Okay” it will never be okay. No matter how much you want to tell him you miss him, it will never amount to seeing him inperson or speaking inperson. But you remain strong and continue to wipe away the tears that flood your cheeks. Even though when they are gone, more will come, and it will pile and pile. You try to hide it , but It wil never go away. Your heart is broken, this was not meant for you. Your friendship finally was coming back together, but now it is broken up again. This wasn’t meant for me , it was meant for you.
